Saturday January 23, 2010
This week has been great and I know I slack off when I am with John. Tuesday when I got home, I cleaned cleaned cleaned. I cleaned Ariel’s room even though I said I wasn’t going to do it; I did it anyway. I did it because I needed to get her back to square one. Then from square one, you can maintain it from there.
When I am with John, time stands still. I dedicate my time to our relationship. We have a limited amount of time together and time apart. So, when we are together, we spend time together and nothing else. We are starting to include Ariel into our relationship. Our interactions are limited with her. Mostly, we spend our time while she is in school. We want to include Mackenzie in to mix but unfortunately, she was sick this week with the stomach flu.
But let’s start from the beginning….since I have deviated….shame on me…..
Tuesday I got home early since I asked the Old Forge bus driver to call the #12 driver (Bill) and hold him on the square so I can catch the bus. I actually made coffee at work and took a carry cup on the bus with me. I have dove right back into my caffeine habit with coffee. I am a caffeine addict and readily admit that. Like I need anything else to keep me from sleeping. No training this week with Ritchie because he was doing a training in NJ. So I cleaned the 2nd floor. I changed all my bedding, did countless loads of laundry and cleaned Ariels’ room and cleaned the bathroom. Other than that Tuesday was pretty uneventful. John was at work after 5:30pm and texted and called me intermittently. I look forward to his calls and texts. Finally, I fell asleep.
On Wednesday, of course I was tired, I cleaned the kitchen. I lost my bet on the football game last weekend so I had to cook for John. After cleaning the kitchen, I went food shopping with Iyishia. Somehow, I ended up with three ½ gallons of milk. (only later to find out one was almost empty and spoiled Saturday morning) I have been paying attention to John and so I had decided to make scallops and steak with mashed potatoes. He said he was a steak and potatoes man. He emphasized that he likes mashed potatoes. When we met and went for lunch at Red Lobster, he had scallops and mentioned they were his favorite. Now I have food in the house. Iyishia was making fun of me because she says I need to learn to make a Mac and cheese homemade. I actually like plain old blue box Kraft Mac n cheez. Always have. I made pork chops for dinner. I finally hooked up with TJ and got my back colored in. I thought it would be more pastels but it is primary colors. It still looks great but not really what I wanted. Now after having it just blackwork, I think maybe I should have just left it black. Oh well. So here is where the drama begins. I didn’t think I would ever have to deal with the subject of stealing with my daughter but apparently I did.
As we were leaving TJ’s house after my tattoo was complete, I found a brand new in the package lip gloss on the carpet. I asked Ariel about it and she said it was not hers. I know it wasn’t there before because Tj’s house was profoundly clean. I asked her repeatedly about it and she denied it and I shrugged it off but had a feeling in my gut she was lying. Maybe it was TJ’s sons’ girlfriends or something but I doubted that. When we got home, she dropped a gold lip gloss on the floor of the front room. Well now I am pissed because she lyed to me and now there is another lip gloss. Finally, she admitted she took it from CVS so off to CVS we go for a scared straight lesson. Of course the employees of CVS have a median age of 21 so I ask for the manager and out comes yet another young kid. In any event, I had to do this. So I asked them what they do to people who steal. They replied thyat they call the Plymouth Police. I asked Ariel if I should have them call the police and she said No and was crying. A lady that had just finished checking out while I waited pats me on the back and says I am a good mother. I sure hope so. All I can say is I am heartbroken. I had done the same thing when I was a kid except I stole a cool pen. Yes, a pen. I like stationary and art supplies. What can I say? I suppose every kid does it but I wasn’t prepared for it to happen just yet. Ok, so just when I think the drama has ended and I send Ariel to her room to get ready for bed, I took out the trash. On my way back into the house I spot YET ANOTHER vial of lip gloss. Now I am absolutely livid! I gave her a chance to come clean! I asked her fourteen different ways from the time we left TJ’s house if it was hers and she still didn’t come clean. So I go upstairs and face the music. I confront Ariel YET AGAIN and she finally comes clean. She better because I don’t know if I could handle anymore. I asked her what her punishment should be and she said Grounded. I asked what does grounded mean. She said no TV and no DS. I asked her for how long and she said TEN. Ten what? Ten days, months, years, weeks? Ten Days of no TV or DS. So John and I are supposed to take the girls bowling on Friday. What are we going to do? I spanked her. Seven for every year of age and 3 more for lying to me three different times. I hate spanking her and can’t recall the last time I did. I think it hurts me more than anything but what else to do? It’s the only thing that resonates inside of her. We will see.
John called and I had to calm down. He talked me down. I told him what happened and he said I have a right to be upset. I still needed to calm down. He asked if he should call back later. NO. I needed him to distract me so my blood pressure would go down. And he did. Don’t ask me what was said because I don’t even remember at this point. All I know is that I will see him on Thursday and that is probably what had me distracted. I miss my man.
I went to bed rather early. I took a nice big fat sleeping pill because I wanted to be on my best game for spending time with John. I like hearing his voice good night and then waking me up in the morning. He showed up around 10am and we hung out for a bit before going out to Ollie’s for brunch. The rest of the day is a blur until dinner. I know I helped Ariel with her homework and science project. I made scallops and Delmonico steak and homemade mashed potatoes for dinner. It came out great. I was making a wine sauce but I didn’t like how it came out so I scraped it. He didn’t have any clothes or anything so he didn’t stay. Friday was a different story.
When he came over on Friday, we had plans to take the kids bowling. Mackenzie is sick with the stomach flu so we didn’t go get her. We went to Ollie’s again for brunch and when we got back we were chilling on the couch but I would rather lay down on my bed. The rest is history. Dessert time! We went at it for a few hours and then he took a nap while I went to get Ariel. Again, I helped her with her homework and science project. I had to get stuff for the animals and stuff for Ariel’s project so we went out to get it. I bought one of those automatic watering dishes for the cats so they don’t have to drink from my bamboo plant. They are bound to break my vase and I will be pissed. Also, I bought Ringo’s food and a treat. Well, we could go bowling or call it a night. We should have called it a night. But, we went bowling anyway. There were so many little kids there running around like banchees acting stupid. It was a league night and all the kids of the league bowlers were all over the place. I couldn’t concentrate and ended up bowling a high of 50. That is horrible. Ariel beat me. She had bumpers but she still beat me. We ran into Mary Roberts at the bowling alley. One more example of how people don’t watch their kids. Adam, Heather’s boyfriend, was bowling on a league and totally wasn’t paying attention to her or her location so she stayed with us. I can’t help but feel responsible for kids. I hate to see anything bad happen to kids at the stupidity of adults.
We came home and I fed the animals and set them up for me being away for the weekend. We waited until Iyishia got home from a birthday party and dropped off Ariel and dropped off money. John stayed the night. He had clothes etc so he slept over. It was nice having a big human in bed with me. He is the first to christen my bed and man to sleep in my bed. Still, it was nice.
Woke up on time to him kissing my neck and took my shower. He made coffee for me. That’s how I want to wake up all the time. He is a pop tart in the morning. I am totally not a morning person so he will definitely carry me in the morning. He drove me to work. I didn’t want to go. I hate to think that it will be whole week until we see each other again. If I had a car I would spend more time. Even if it meant driving out to Catawissa just to sleep together and have coffee in the morning before he left for work. But here is this no car thing and it sucks. I have to pay my fines and get a new car. As soon as I get those fines paid I am going to go back to Northeast Auto Credit and get another car. I just gotta pay those fines.
Work is work and a long day it was. No physical therapy to break up the day and leave the house. So now it is nebulizer treatments and home physical therapy to break up the day. His daughter is such a bitch! I know in my heart of hearts that she means well but she needs to relax. We did exercises and all our stuff and she comes and he is in his chair. It just happens to be when she shows up that he is in his recliner. And then I gotta hear her mouth. I wonder if Earl gets it like I do. I wonder how he handles it? Earl said that his brother in law may be giving me a ride home on Monday morning. That would be great. I could be home by 8:35am. I would be willing to pay him in gas money. He has to go back to Wilkes Barre anyway! He might as well get a little cash for it. I can’t get a taxi to come and pick me up without paying outrageous prices. So, I take the bus. But if I could get a ride, that’s even better.
I had to wake Mario up to put him to bed. I spoke to John and went to bed by 9:30pm. I am starting to go to bed on time so I don’t feel so shitty in the morning. I still feel like shit today but I think it is out of boredom. I try my best to stay awake but who wants to watch someone sleep? That’s what it boils down to. John is gonna let me use his wireless card for my computer so I can do my CEU’s for my EMT license online while I am here at Mario’s house. That would be great. It leaves my options open. I know that Arlene, Mario’s daughter, doesn’t want to see him in the hospital or a nursing home, but if he declines and does get admitted I need to have options. Hopefully, it won’t come to that until minimum April because then I can get my CNA training and my options will be open for real. I want my EMT license reinstated though. I want lots of options.
So I guess we are caught up now. Until tomorrow….
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
Kings and Queens
She wakes to love’s light
Shining through the panes aglow
The radiant gleam in her eyes
Looks passionately into his smile
The miles of kings in between
Form beds of distance afar
The closeness is apparent
It’s only a short way to go
The path we walk is unclear
The road less traveled
This is a mission I chose willingly
Only happiness to know
Shining through the panes aglow
The radiant gleam in her eyes
Looks passionately into his smile
The miles of kings in between
Form beds of distance afar
The closeness is apparent
It’s only a short way to go
The path we walk is unclear
The road less traveled
This is a mission I chose willingly
Only happiness to know
Breaking Dawn
Mindless drones roaming content
Happy with goalless days
Work home work sleep
The completeness of his days
Chose a life
Make your destination
No the highway
He drove
Who is he?
Why there?
When did the steering wheel
Leave my hands
I am here
But where
Right here see my hand
A raised flag of existence
Please spot me over here
Break free from the hive
Catch me if you can
Happy with goalless days
Work home work sleep
The completeness of his days
Chose a life
Make your destination
No the highway
He drove
Who is he?
Why there?
When did the steering wheel
Leave my hands
I am here
But where
Right here see my hand
A raised flag of existence
Please spot me over here
Break free from the hive
Catch me if you can
Last day....
Monday January 18, 2010
Well we woke up late. John didn’t wake me up until 6:45am. I snoozed for a little while but I was downstairs by 7:15am. I still love to hear his voice even if it was late. John said he is getting sick. He did mention last night that he felt like he had the chills and actually slept in his bed and not the couch. I was surprised. I wish I was in bed. On the contrary, I had to take off my undershirt that I usually wear under my scrubs because I feel like I’m on fire. I am constantly sweating and feel hot.
Mario was a mess this morning. I guess his stomach is not done doing flips. One more day. Just one more day. Less than 24 hours and I will be home. The office called me today. They want me to service Mike on Wednesday. I don’t feel like working on my days off. Especially in the middle of my days off. I leave at 9:10am and get there at 11am only to return home by maybe 4pm sometimes 5pm. That my whole day for 3 hours of service. His service doesn’t take 3 hours and I am stuck there. I would rather stick to my Mario and enjoy my days off. I can’t wait until Thursday and see John.
So far so good today at work. I made it to lunch. If I can make it through dinner the rest is cake. I cant believe that my client is watching Jerry Springer. They must have a farm that they grow these losers on. Where the hell do they find these people? How could these people want to degrade themselves on TV? If they want to fight, go home and fight! Why do you have to come on TV to come and fight? The best part is the audience who make crude comments on these people and then want to get in to fights with these people as well! Why get involved with their craziness? I am not in need for drama. I love my little quiet life. Some may say Im boring but boring is safe. Boring lets me sleep at night. I enjoy stability.
I have to do my nails when I get home. I know that is just a random thought but so if my life. I want to buy a new color. I have been sporting the same colors for a while now and they are even running out so it’s time to get new polishes. I feel like going to get my eyebrows waxed as well. I haven’t been professionally waxed in a long time. Aren’t I just full of ideas today?
What’s for dinner? I dunno. I am so bored of food. I lost the football bet so I have to make dinner for John. He said he is a meat and potatoes kind of guy. When we went to Red Lobster he really enjoyed the scallops so I think I am going to get some nice filet mignon and some scallops and make some homemade mashed potatoes with cheddar and bacon on top. I will make some biscuits too. That sounds like a plan. I can enjoy that too. I haven’t had some good steak in a long while never mind some filet mignon. I figure it will be good. I will wrap some bacon around it and pan sear it then put it in the oven til the desired doneness. The scallops can be made the same way so they have a nice crust on them. Now I just need to think of a vegetable? I will have to ask what kind of vegetables he likes. We are pretty much open to any kind of vegetables. I haven’t cooked a full meal in a long time. It will be nice to cook for someone again. I really enjoy cooking but it’s kind of useless to only cook for me.
Anyway, moving on…It’s 1:15pm and now we are watching America’s Funniest Home Videos again. I suppose anything is better than the alternatives of judge shows and argumentative nobodys on tv talking about completely irrelevant crap.
Mario’s grandkids came over to cut his hair. He had some serious outrageously long hair in the front and some crazy bed head going on in the back. At least it breaks up my day. He actually has the TV on a channel that has George Lopez and My name is Earl. I need some distractions. It’s 2:50pm and I am crazy bored. 17 hours to go.
Ok I finally had to change the TV to TNT and Law and Order. I couldn’t take it anymore! He isn’t watching it! He is snoring off the excitement of his haircut. I tried to get him to exercise today and he didn’t want to. What am I supposed to do? Roll him into the corner and leave him there until he does pulley exercises.
I finally heard from John. I was starting to get worried. I know he wasn’t feeling well and was sleeping it off but it was getting late. He has to be at work by 5:30pm and didn’t hear from him until 4:15pm. I was worried that he would sleep right through his alarms or even his shift. He said he is feeling better. Good! I’m glad. I would hate for anything to put a damper on our plans for Thursday. 15 hours to go…It’s pretty sad that I am counting by the hours and the minutes until I get to go home. I have had enough piss and poop and fashion star wardrobe changes. I’m just done.
Sleeping beauty slept for like 4 hours straight. I don’t know how he is gonna sleep tonight when he slept the day away. I don’t care I just put him to bed, got my shower and now I’m ready to talk to the boy and go to bed. Less than 12 hours! I did write two poems today. I had to do something with all my free time. Post will follow…
Well we woke up late. John didn’t wake me up until 6:45am. I snoozed for a little while but I was downstairs by 7:15am. I still love to hear his voice even if it was late. John said he is getting sick. He did mention last night that he felt like he had the chills and actually slept in his bed and not the couch. I was surprised. I wish I was in bed. On the contrary, I had to take off my undershirt that I usually wear under my scrubs because I feel like I’m on fire. I am constantly sweating and feel hot.
Mario was a mess this morning. I guess his stomach is not done doing flips. One more day. Just one more day. Less than 24 hours and I will be home. The office called me today. They want me to service Mike on Wednesday. I don’t feel like working on my days off. Especially in the middle of my days off. I leave at 9:10am and get there at 11am only to return home by maybe 4pm sometimes 5pm. That my whole day for 3 hours of service. His service doesn’t take 3 hours and I am stuck there. I would rather stick to my Mario and enjoy my days off. I can’t wait until Thursday and see John.
So far so good today at work. I made it to lunch. If I can make it through dinner the rest is cake. I cant believe that my client is watching Jerry Springer. They must have a farm that they grow these losers on. Where the hell do they find these people? How could these people want to degrade themselves on TV? If they want to fight, go home and fight! Why do you have to come on TV to come and fight? The best part is the audience who make crude comments on these people and then want to get in to fights with these people as well! Why get involved with their craziness? I am not in need for drama. I love my little quiet life. Some may say Im boring but boring is safe. Boring lets me sleep at night. I enjoy stability.
I have to do my nails when I get home. I know that is just a random thought but so if my life. I want to buy a new color. I have been sporting the same colors for a while now and they are even running out so it’s time to get new polishes. I feel like going to get my eyebrows waxed as well. I haven’t been professionally waxed in a long time. Aren’t I just full of ideas today?
What’s for dinner? I dunno. I am so bored of food. I lost the football bet so I have to make dinner for John. He said he is a meat and potatoes kind of guy. When we went to Red Lobster he really enjoyed the scallops so I think I am going to get some nice filet mignon and some scallops and make some homemade mashed potatoes with cheddar and bacon on top. I will make some biscuits too. That sounds like a plan. I can enjoy that too. I haven’t had some good steak in a long while never mind some filet mignon. I figure it will be good. I will wrap some bacon around it and pan sear it then put it in the oven til the desired doneness. The scallops can be made the same way so they have a nice crust on them. Now I just need to think of a vegetable? I will have to ask what kind of vegetables he likes. We are pretty much open to any kind of vegetables. I haven’t cooked a full meal in a long time. It will be nice to cook for someone again. I really enjoy cooking but it’s kind of useless to only cook for me.
Anyway, moving on…It’s 1:15pm and now we are watching America’s Funniest Home Videos again. I suppose anything is better than the alternatives of judge shows and argumentative nobodys on tv talking about completely irrelevant crap.
Mario’s grandkids came over to cut his hair. He had some serious outrageously long hair in the front and some crazy bed head going on in the back. At least it breaks up my day. He actually has the TV on a channel that has George Lopez and My name is Earl. I need some distractions. It’s 2:50pm and I am crazy bored. 17 hours to go.
Ok I finally had to change the TV to TNT and Law and Order. I couldn’t take it anymore! He isn’t watching it! He is snoring off the excitement of his haircut. I tried to get him to exercise today and he didn’t want to. What am I supposed to do? Roll him into the corner and leave him there until he does pulley exercises.
I finally heard from John. I was starting to get worried. I know he wasn’t feeling well and was sleeping it off but it was getting late. He has to be at work by 5:30pm and didn’t hear from him until 4:15pm. I was worried that he would sleep right through his alarms or even his shift. He said he is feeling better. Good! I’m glad. I would hate for anything to put a damper on our plans for Thursday. 15 hours to go…It’s pretty sad that I am counting by the hours and the minutes until I get to go home. I have had enough piss and poop and fashion star wardrobe changes. I’m just done.
Sleeping beauty slept for like 4 hours straight. I don’t know how he is gonna sleep tonight when he slept the day away. I don’t care I just put him to bed, got my shower and now I’m ready to talk to the boy and go to bed. Less than 12 hours! I did write two poems today. I had to do something with all my free time. Post will follow…
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Sunday Football Day
Sunday Jan 17,2010
I woke up to the sound of his voice. Came downstairs to find my client, Mario, sitting straight upright. He found the remote to put his head up and got stuck in the upright position for who knows how long! I hope it wasn’t very long. I had to laugh though. He is feeling a little better than yesterday but keeps going to the bathroom. Well, that was his demise. I think he has a stomach virus because he has been shitting his brains out. Explosively! Good grief! He really did it to me today! One more day….One more day closer to John. Trying for that to be my mantra.
We are actually watching the football game. After watching all those MSNBC and WVIA shows with all those dopes arguing about nothingness, it is such a relief! John is watching the game at home. Somehow, it makes me feel closer to him. I am becoming a wussy female and I am not sure if I like that or not. Minnesota is kicking the Cowboys asses. Good! Brett Favre is on fire with Rice on the receiving end. 3 touchdown game by Rice and two field goals. Only a little bit left of this game. Cowboys have basically no chance of winning this game. They scored those 3 points in the first quarter and nothing since.
Ariel has been calling me nonstop all day. Well first it was just to say hello. Then it was the drama. I guess Ritchie got tired of looking at the girls playing their Ds’s and told the girls to put them up and go read a book. Well, that started it. Don’t tell Ariel she can’t play her DS or she is going to have a stroke. Why should she be “punished” when she didn’t do anything wrong to get her DS taken away. She reads at home and plays all she wants at home. Some of the games she actually has to read the stories! Well that was just the beginning…
Vikings with less than 2 minutes to go have 33-3 lead. Cowboys don’t have a chance! 4 touchdown game!
Ok back to Ariel’s drama…So, then I guess the girls got to playing loudly and not reading so Iyishia yelled at them that they weren’t reading and somewhere in the mix, Kaylynn yoked up Ariel and she made Ariel cry choking her. I am sure it was just playing but it got rough and Ariel was upset about the whole DS thing to begin with. So Iyishia said no more DS playing today and if they keep it up no DS playing tomorrow. Well, that sent Ariel into a tizzy and calling me to intervene. I asked Iyishia what the hell was going on over there and she told me the story. All of this could have been avoided if Ritchie didn’t bring up the whole reading thing. Ariel has her science project due on the 29th of January and I tried to redirect her towards her chipmunk book and reading up on the subject so we could do her science project when I come home. We will see how this whole DS thing pans out. Ariel is not used to someone else handing out the discipline when it comes to her DS. Sit her down, tell her no tv and go play, send her to bed…don’t mess with her DS.
Well, the Vikings have won the game final score being 33-3.
Ariel called me again. This time she had good news for me. Her little snaggletooth fell out. She said she was playing with Alicia and somehow (I don’t know how) hit her mouth and her tooth popped out. I told her to put it in a sandwich bag and put it in her luggage. She said she had to put it under her pillow and so I still told her to put it in a sandwich bag and then put it under there so she doesn’t lose it. Maybe Iyishia will give her a dollar. I give her a dollar. I will give her two this time since she was away from home if she doesn’t get anything from the Atherton tooth fairy.
Anyway, John is going to one of his friend’s houses to watch the Jets vs. Chargers game. I texted him and hopefully he will get it and call me and leave a voicemail so I can hear his voice. It makes me happy. He probably thinks I am a royal pain in the ass. But then again, maybe not. We will see. I will leave him alone while he is at his friends’ house. I am not that stupid. He will text me when he gets home. I will talk to him before I go to bed. So, back to being bored. Hopefully, I will get to see some of the Chargers game. There is really not anything on tv on the other channels. There are not even any good movies on TNT or TBS. He can’t wait until 60 minutes. That doesn’t come on until 8pm. Hopefully, I will be liberated by then. Please go to sleep early! Just one more day….one more day.
Well I got stuck watching Pennsylvania Outdoor Life (kill me now!) and then America’s Funniest Home Videos. That is semi-bearable. Now is 60 minutes time. I know it sounds crass but I am just about done hearing about Haiti. I understand that they are a third world nation and they are suffering but we are suffering too and now we are sending all this aide! Who is helping us? Who is helping our homeless and indigent? We are a super-power yet we are being crippled from the inside. We need to take care of our own people before we can help others. There are people who need food stamps and medical care. There are people who are unemployed and receive no unemployment insurance (like I was a few months ago). We have a shortage of nurses and doctors and now we are sending them to Haiti. Do these doctors volunteer for this stuff? Do they think they are going to save the world? One country at a time? I have a great respect for Doctors without borders. I wish I could participate in that program. Do I want to be knee deep in shit like those people are in Haiti? Not quite. I have a bittersweet appreciation for these situations. I want to help but I want help for Americans as well.
Now we wait for the boy. Ariel finally calmed down and Iyishia is a big softie and let the girls have their DSs back. I am glad or she is going to have crazy kids on her hands. Screw Ritchie! He can play around on the computer or talk to his trick on his iPhone but don’t mess with 2 seven-year-olds and their DSs. I am glad the girls have calmed down. They get along a lot better when they are both enraptured by their DSs. Now, we just need to get Kaylynn one and the trio will be complete. Apparently she knows how to play at the wee age of four.
Spoke to the boy before bed. Of course, I am tired and yawninf but can’t sleep so I took the great chance in seeing if I had internet access and I am capitalizing on it to post my blogs. I am keeping my commitment but when I am at work, the wifi is a little sketchy. Can’t wait til Thursday! One more day….One more day and I go home….
I woke up to the sound of his voice. Came downstairs to find my client, Mario, sitting straight upright. He found the remote to put his head up and got stuck in the upright position for who knows how long! I hope it wasn’t very long. I had to laugh though. He is feeling a little better than yesterday but keeps going to the bathroom. Well, that was his demise. I think he has a stomach virus because he has been shitting his brains out. Explosively! Good grief! He really did it to me today! One more day….One more day closer to John. Trying for that to be my mantra.
We are actually watching the football game. After watching all those MSNBC and WVIA shows with all those dopes arguing about nothingness, it is such a relief! John is watching the game at home. Somehow, it makes me feel closer to him. I am becoming a wussy female and I am not sure if I like that or not. Minnesota is kicking the Cowboys asses. Good! Brett Favre is on fire with Rice on the receiving end. 3 touchdown game by Rice and two field goals. Only a little bit left of this game. Cowboys have basically no chance of winning this game. They scored those 3 points in the first quarter and nothing since.
Ariel has been calling me nonstop all day. Well first it was just to say hello. Then it was the drama. I guess Ritchie got tired of looking at the girls playing their Ds’s and told the girls to put them up and go read a book. Well, that started it. Don’t tell Ariel she can’t play her DS or she is going to have a stroke. Why should she be “punished” when she didn’t do anything wrong to get her DS taken away. She reads at home and plays all she wants at home. Some of the games she actually has to read the stories! Well that was just the beginning…
Vikings with less than 2 minutes to go have 33-3 lead. Cowboys don’t have a chance! 4 touchdown game!
Ok back to Ariel’s drama…So, then I guess the girls got to playing loudly and not reading so Iyishia yelled at them that they weren’t reading and somewhere in the mix, Kaylynn yoked up Ariel and she made Ariel cry choking her. I am sure it was just playing but it got rough and Ariel was upset about the whole DS thing to begin with. So Iyishia said no more DS playing today and if they keep it up no DS playing tomorrow. Well, that sent Ariel into a tizzy and calling me to intervene. I asked Iyishia what the hell was going on over there and she told me the story. All of this could have been avoided if Ritchie didn’t bring up the whole reading thing. Ariel has her science project due on the 29th of January and I tried to redirect her towards her chipmunk book and reading up on the subject so we could do her science project when I come home. We will see how this whole DS thing pans out. Ariel is not used to someone else handing out the discipline when it comes to her DS. Sit her down, tell her no tv and go play, send her to bed…don’t mess with her DS.
Well, the Vikings have won the game final score being 33-3.
Ariel called me again. This time she had good news for me. Her little snaggletooth fell out. She said she was playing with Alicia and somehow (I don’t know how) hit her mouth and her tooth popped out. I told her to put it in a sandwich bag and put it in her luggage. She said she had to put it under her pillow and so I still told her to put it in a sandwich bag and then put it under there so she doesn’t lose it. Maybe Iyishia will give her a dollar. I give her a dollar. I will give her two this time since she was away from home if she doesn’t get anything from the Atherton tooth fairy.
Anyway, John is going to one of his friend’s houses to watch the Jets vs. Chargers game. I texted him and hopefully he will get it and call me and leave a voicemail so I can hear his voice. It makes me happy. He probably thinks I am a royal pain in the ass. But then again, maybe not. We will see. I will leave him alone while he is at his friends’ house. I am not that stupid. He will text me when he gets home. I will talk to him before I go to bed. So, back to being bored. Hopefully, I will get to see some of the Chargers game. There is really not anything on tv on the other channels. There are not even any good movies on TNT or TBS. He can’t wait until 60 minutes. That doesn’t come on until 8pm. Hopefully, I will be liberated by then. Please go to sleep early! Just one more day….one more day.
Well I got stuck watching Pennsylvania Outdoor Life (kill me now!) and then America’s Funniest Home Videos. That is semi-bearable. Now is 60 minutes time. I know it sounds crass but I am just about done hearing about Haiti. I understand that they are a third world nation and they are suffering but we are suffering too and now we are sending all this aide! Who is helping us? Who is helping our homeless and indigent? We are a super-power yet we are being crippled from the inside. We need to take care of our own people before we can help others. There are people who need food stamps and medical care. There are people who are unemployed and receive no unemployment insurance (like I was a few months ago). We have a shortage of nurses and doctors and now we are sending them to Haiti. Do these doctors volunteer for this stuff? Do they think they are going to save the world? One country at a time? I have a great respect for Doctors without borders. I wish I could participate in that program. Do I want to be knee deep in shit like those people are in Haiti? Not quite. I have a bittersweet appreciation for these situations. I want to help but I want help for Americans as well.
Now we wait for the boy. Ariel finally calmed down and Iyishia is a big softie and let the girls have their DSs back. I am glad or she is going to have crazy kids on her hands. Screw Ritchie! He can play around on the computer or talk to his trick on his iPhone but don’t mess with 2 seven-year-olds and their DSs. I am glad the girls have calmed down. They get along a lot better when they are both enraptured by their DSs. Now, we just need to get Kaylynn one and the trio will be complete. Apparently she knows how to play at the wee age of four.
Spoke to the boy before bed. Of course, I am tired and yawninf but can’t sleep so I took the great chance in seeing if I had internet access and I am capitalizing on it to post my blogs. I am keeping my commitment but when I am at work, the wifi is a little sketchy. Can’t wait til Thursday! One more day….One more day and I go home….
Saturday's Blog
Saturday Jan 16, 2010
Well it’s Saturday and I still have 2 days to go. I really hate extended stays. But I will have Friday off to spend time with John. I keep telling myself that over and over. I’m doing this for Friday. I woke up to the sound of his voice. Yay! He called a little late but it doesn’t matter. I was still downstairs by 7am.
I can t get my blogs to post and it is really getting to me. I can’t get some wireless service to save my life. I hate when I am all set to go and can’t get things done. John has texted me during the day not as much as usual but I think it’s because #1 he was busy and #2 I told him that Mario wasn’t feeling well and he didn’t want to disturb me. He said he was going through Dory withdrawls. So cute. He misses me. I miss him too. It’s going to be a long week. 2 more days. 2 more days.
Ariel is going through Mommy withdrawls. She started calling me last night. Everyone was asleep and she had too much time on her hands and started thinking. Iyishia said the girls were chit chatting too much and she separated them and then Ariel was alone. My poor baby. She call me first thing in the morning when she woke up and has been calling me ever since. I only answer the phone half the time. She doesn’t understand I can’t be sitting on the phone all day. It’s unprofessional. So she started texting me. But she is funny. She texts me and then she calls me to see if I got her text. Lol.
Mario hasn’t been feeling well since last night. He has pretty much slept in his chair all day. He didn’t finish breakfast and only ate some lunchmeat at lunchtime. His daughter Arlene came to see him and pick up the shopping list. I told her the situation and of course when she says to eat something then he listens. H e attempted to eat some soup but he didn’t finish that either. But it was enough to take his insulin so that’s good. I had to change the tv while he was sleeping because if I actually had to watch any more infomercials I think I was going to lose my mind.
Well I got to text John later in the day when things slowed down for him at work and then when he went home. He told me I was beautiful and that my glasses are fine. I had told him I would wear my contacts for him and he said no. He said when he misses me he looks at my picture. I told him that’s why I asked him to leave me a voicemail so I can listen to his voice. I have to take other pix of him or pics of us together so we can have them. I wish we could find one of those photo booths and take pix there. That would be cool and split them. He told me he was very happy and hasn’t been this way in a long time and everyday he can’t wait to hear from me. I haven’t felt this happy in a long time. I think I blogged about it before…how I haven’t felt giddy since before my husband and that’s a long time. It’s a nice feeling. It’s even better when you know that those feelings are reciprocated. I hope I didn’t lose yesterday’s blog. I didn’t write it in word like this one. It’s on the website and I can’t get on the wireless so I hope I don’t lose it because that is gonna suck because lord knows at this point I don’t even remember what I wrote to duplicate it. I have all posts saved except Thursday. If my thoughts have not been recorded in Thursdays blog then I will get into it tomorrow or whenever I can check Thursday’s blog.
Well it’s Saturday and I still have 2 days to go. I really hate extended stays. But I will have Friday off to spend time with John. I keep telling myself that over and over. I’m doing this for Friday. I woke up to the sound of his voice. Yay! He called a little late but it doesn’t matter. I was still downstairs by 7am.
I can t get my blogs to post and it is really getting to me. I can’t get some wireless service to save my life. I hate when I am all set to go and can’t get things done. John has texted me during the day not as much as usual but I think it’s because #1 he was busy and #2 I told him that Mario wasn’t feeling well and he didn’t want to disturb me. He said he was going through Dory withdrawls. So cute. He misses me. I miss him too. It’s going to be a long week. 2 more days. 2 more days.
Ariel is going through Mommy withdrawls. She started calling me last night. Everyone was asleep and she had too much time on her hands and started thinking. Iyishia said the girls were chit chatting too much and she separated them and then Ariel was alone. My poor baby. She call me first thing in the morning when she woke up and has been calling me ever since. I only answer the phone half the time. She doesn’t understand I can’t be sitting on the phone all day. It’s unprofessional. So she started texting me. But she is funny. She texts me and then she calls me to see if I got her text. Lol.
Mario hasn’t been feeling well since last night. He has pretty much slept in his chair all day. He didn’t finish breakfast and only ate some lunchmeat at lunchtime. His daughter Arlene came to see him and pick up the shopping list. I told her the situation and of course when she says to eat something then he listens. H e attempted to eat some soup but he didn’t finish that either. But it was enough to take his insulin so that’s good. I had to change the tv while he was sleeping because if I actually had to watch any more infomercials I think I was going to lose my mind.
Well I got to text John later in the day when things slowed down for him at work and then when he went home. He told me I was beautiful and that my glasses are fine. I had told him I would wear my contacts for him and he said no. He said when he misses me he looks at my picture. I told him that’s why I asked him to leave me a voicemail so I can listen to his voice. I have to take other pix of him or pics of us together so we can have them. I wish we could find one of those photo booths and take pix there. That would be cool and split them. He told me he was very happy and hasn’t been this way in a long time and everyday he can’t wait to hear from me. I haven’t felt this happy in a long time. I think I blogged about it before…how I haven’t felt giddy since before my husband and that’s a long time. It’s a nice feeling. It’s even better when you know that those feelings are reciprocated. I hope I didn’t lose yesterday’s blog. I didn’t write it in word like this one. It’s on the website and I can’t get on the wireless so I hope I don’t lose it because that is gonna suck because lord knows at this point I don’t even remember what I wrote to duplicate it. I have all posts saved except Thursday. If my thoughts have not been recorded in Thursdays blog then I will get into it tomorrow or whenever I can check Thursday’s blog.
Friday January 15, 2010 First day back....
I know some of my posts are in a kinda screwy order but at least I did them. I just posted them weird which is why I put the dates on them just in case anyone is actually followin me and keeping up with the pace!
I woke up to the sound of John's voice. I actually got up too. I called right away for my taxi. Walt now has a standing order for my Friday morning taxi. I was on time for work. Every Friday I am sooo tired even though I went to bed on time and fell asleep fairly quickly.
Mario is having a rough day today. Physical thereapy is really pushing him because his last session is Wednesday next week and they wanna make the most out of the time he has left. So he was one tired guy. Didn't help that his sugar was wacky today because transportation showed up early and he was still eating his lunch and we were rushing so he didn't get his insulin shot til after we got home and I think the change in routine sent him into a tizzy. He was still feeling like shit when I put him to bed. He couldn't even make it to the bathroom so I had to clean him up before bed. I'm hoping he didn't pull a muscle in his stomach because I have done that and the results are not pretty at least for a week. And I'm here til tuesday so I don't wanna hear that!
John had a busy day at work. He says day shift is always busy and meetings, and bosses and all that is on day shift but I actually got to talk to him while Mario was at therapy for about 10 minutes which is nice. I have it bad and I know it. I can honestly say I haven't been smitten like this for anyone since Steven and that's over 12 years ago. I don't think I was even this giddy with my husband. With James we just kinda fell into a routine and with that routine was marriage. We never had a courtship or the anticipation of dating. With Ariel's father we ran in the same circles at work and I think it was more lust than anything else. And after I came off the road it was mistrust and lust. I can't wait to talk to John. I look forward to hearing his voice. I stare at the clock and wonder where exactly on his journey to my house he is at. I hate to see him go or that last kiss. I don't want to stop kissing him. I got it bad and readily admit it. For those of you that may be following me I'm sure you are tired of hearing about John and I'm sorry but that's the best thing my life has going at the moment.
He made me a voicemail at my request. Its so I can hear his voice whenever I want when I miss him. I can't believe he actually indulged me. I'm glad he did. My girlfriend Nona from college was not the smartest of apples on the tree, but had this little gem. She said "if he is not willing...then he is not worthy." and I have lived by that since then. I have had people scoff at the gem but you know what? they are not worthy if they would even question it. He drives from Catawissa all the time to see me. Misses me when we are apart. Calls me whenever we can. Listens when I speak. Has a genuine interest in my day or happenings even how trivial they may be. And he is willing to do all this. So, for me, he is worthy. I wish I had a car because I would drive out there just to kiss him goodnight and tuck him in. I would go there before he got off from work and make dinner and pack his lunch for the next day. I would do all those things. He has to work Monday night and forgot that me and Earl swapped out days and he was going to drive out before work just to see me for a little bit. But we have 2 days off together next week coming. We gotta wait til Thursday for those 2 days but it will be worth that wait. I think he is worth it. I don't want to date anymore. I want John.
Mario just called for me. He felt nauseus. Is that even the right spelling? Oh well. And I claim myself an English minor in college. For shame! That I can't even spell...LOL. I went down to help him out and took his sugar. He is having a rough day. I feel bad for him. I hope this all works itself out overnight or this is gonna be a looooong weekend. So I am back upstairs now and hopefully he will feel better. I have my "mommy ears" on to hear him if he needs me. So I am actually gonna go to bed now. I know a bit early fo my usual but I don't wanna be nodding off all day and John will wake me up in the morning. I am going to sleep to wait for his voice in the morning. Yeah...I got it bad!
Well good night all. Sweet dreams and great realities....
I woke up to the sound of John's voice. I actually got up too. I called right away for my taxi. Walt now has a standing order for my Friday morning taxi. I was on time for work. Every Friday I am sooo tired even though I went to bed on time and fell asleep fairly quickly.
Mario is having a rough day today. Physical thereapy is really pushing him because his last session is Wednesday next week and they wanna make the most out of the time he has left. So he was one tired guy. Didn't help that his sugar was wacky today because transportation showed up early and he was still eating his lunch and we were rushing so he didn't get his insulin shot til after we got home and I think the change in routine sent him into a tizzy. He was still feeling like shit when I put him to bed. He couldn't even make it to the bathroom so I had to clean him up before bed. I'm hoping he didn't pull a muscle in his stomach because I have done that and the results are not pretty at least for a week. And I'm here til tuesday so I don't wanna hear that!
John had a busy day at work. He says day shift is always busy and meetings, and bosses and all that is on day shift but I actually got to talk to him while Mario was at therapy for about 10 minutes which is nice. I have it bad and I know it. I can honestly say I haven't been smitten like this for anyone since Steven and that's over 12 years ago. I don't think I was even this giddy with my husband. With James we just kinda fell into a routine and with that routine was marriage. We never had a courtship or the anticipation of dating. With Ariel's father we ran in the same circles at work and I think it was more lust than anything else. And after I came off the road it was mistrust and lust. I can't wait to talk to John. I look forward to hearing his voice. I stare at the clock and wonder where exactly on his journey to my house he is at. I hate to see him go or that last kiss. I don't want to stop kissing him. I got it bad and readily admit it. For those of you that may be following me I'm sure you are tired of hearing about John and I'm sorry but that's the best thing my life has going at the moment.
He made me a voicemail at my request. Its so I can hear his voice whenever I want when I miss him. I can't believe he actually indulged me. I'm glad he did. My girlfriend Nona from college was not the smartest of apples on the tree, but had this little gem. She said "if he is not willing...then he is not worthy." and I have lived by that since then. I have had people scoff at the gem but you know what? they are not worthy if they would even question it. He drives from Catawissa all the time to see me. Misses me when we are apart. Calls me whenever we can. Listens when I speak. Has a genuine interest in my day or happenings even how trivial they may be. And he is willing to do all this. So, for me, he is worthy. I wish I had a car because I would drive out there just to kiss him goodnight and tuck him in. I would go there before he got off from work and make dinner and pack his lunch for the next day. I would do all those things. He has to work Monday night and forgot that me and Earl swapped out days and he was going to drive out before work just to see me for a little bit. But we have 2 days off together next week coming. We gotta wait til Thursday for those 2 days but it will be worth that wait. I think he is worth it. I don't want to date anymore. I want John.
Mario just called for me. He felt nauseus. Is that even the right spelling? Oh well. And I claim myself an English minor in college. For shame! That I can't even spell...LOL. I went down to help him out and took his sugar. He is having a rough day. I feel bad for him. I hope this all works itself out overnight or this is gonna be a looooong weekend. So I am back upstairs now and hopefully he will feel better. I have my "mommy ears" on to hear him if he needs me. So I am actually gonna go to bed now. I know a bit early fo my usual but I don't wanna be nodding off all day and John will wake me up in the morning. I am going to sleep to wait for his voice in the morning. Yeah...I got it bad!
Well good night all. Sweet dreams and great realities....
Friday, January 15, 2010
Wednesday HUMP DAY January 13, 2010
Well, I got Ariel off to school this morning and since I didn’t sleep much I fell back asleep. John text me and said he would be leaving soon. I asked how long it takes to get from Mackenzies to my house and he said about an hour. Well I guess my body knows what an hour is because I fell asleep for exactly an hour. I got up thinking he was gonna be knocking at my door any minute. Well I jumped in the shower and did a quick onceover including a shave. Luckily for me, he took 11 all the way from Moosic (bad move but good for me) and he showed up about 10:30am. After a coffee break, we head out to Catawissa. I think I might actually be able to find his house on my own if I were driving. When we first got there, he showed me the house and fed the “Rat”. Rat has officially become the cat’s name. We hung out on the couch for a bit and I reminded him to go take a shower. So he did. I like how he smells. Drakkar Noir. I like it. Even better would be Curve for men. That cologne makes me weak at the knees. It takes everything within my power to resist Curve. I have been known to smell on men in the supermarket. I can tell it a mile away. We took a 4-wheeler ride for a little while. It was cold! But he knows that I like 4-wheeling. We will have to pick up on that when it is warmer tho. But we went down to the mailbox to get the mail. And took a tour of the property. We headed back in because he didn’t take gloves and his hands were really really cold. I had his Giants sweatshirt on because I only had a light jacket. I didn’t know we would be out in the cold. If I know we are only gonna be in and out of the car, I don’t wear a heavy coat. So he gave me the hoodie to keep warm. When we got back in, we left shortly after that to go get some lunch and Tom’s Diner in town. He ordered Roast beef and ordered a platter instead of an open face sandwich and I had a cheezburger. So there was no way he was gonna finish that so we took the rest home for leftover dinner. When we got back, I offered my massage and he liked it. A simple statement of “if you took your shirt off I could do your whole back” WELL I’ve never seen him move so quick because in lickity split that shirt was off! So I continued my massage. The rest gets XXX rated. All I can say is that the segway was “you know this is gonna happen eventually so let’s go” and off we went to the bedroom. It was so matter of fact. It actually made it cute instead of crass. I wasn’t complaining or protesting! I will never date another younger man, if I ever date again. I hope I don’t have to date again. John is a keeper. He can teach me a few tricks and is good at what he does. I kinda let him lead the way just to feel him out and see what he had under his sleeves. All very good things under his sleeves. I wanna see what is under all the shirts in his closets! Definitely not ten minutes. Later on we hung out and talked and watched some tv. Around 5:45-ish he left and headed home. He had to be at work at 5:30 am so we headed out. Ariel was calling me too and wanted to know when I was coming home. I told her 7pm I would be there and I am able to give good ETAs. We got there, met Iyishia and were in the car headed home at 7:02pm. How about them apples?? Nothing could ruin my day. He text me when he got home and I called his back. I like hearing his voice before I go to bed. I like it to be the last thing I hear. (besides Ariel) We had grilled cheese for dinner and made it to bed pretty early. I was tired. And able to sleep well. Very well.
Are we up to Thursday already? Jan 14, 2009
I have absolutely no energy today. John sucked the life out of me. (quite literally ;) ) I did laundry and cleaned the house most of the day and in the afternoon after Iyishia pickede Kay up from school, we went to Target to continue doing her baby registry. That's something I have to start! I know all the stuff I do at showers but all I have to do is start finding out where to rent the chair etc. I love baby showers I have such a good time with them. I can't wait to go shopping for knick knacks and souveniers. I guarentee no one has seen a baby shower until they have been to one of mine! I am actually quite honored she is letting me throw her shower. I also have to find out where I can have the ribbons for the capias made. In NYC you can get them printed anywhere I am going to have to find a place out here though. Starbucks and Advil saved my life. I needed the caffeine and chocolate. Then, I needed some Advil because I had a splitting headache and achy bones and muscles. Thanks John! But I am not complaining! Not even a little bit! I actually almost have ALL the laundry done! A few more towels and I have to do the sheets that are on the bed but i am not going to change them until I get back home from work. I think that's what is kicking up Ariel and my allergies. I don't believe that she is sick even though she stayed home from school today. She only gets "sick" at night and early in the morning. So I think I have to change the sheets a little more often so the cat dander is down to a minimum. Because I know I have been affected by it too. And she always has Oliver up in her face and both cats sleep with us. John text me that he was going to bed. 5:30a is way early but that's what time he has to be into work so he has to be up at the crack before dawn even thinks of breaking. I called him because I wanted to hear his voice. He will wake me up in the morning...I look forward to it.
Missed Monday again...
Grrrrr .I wrote like two paragraphs and deleted them by accident. How do I end up donig that?? There are controls but which on is the undo button like in Word? It is very frustrating to not know what I am doing wrong. How am I supposed to fix something when I dont know what I did?
Anyway, today was a John day. I like John days. We have three days off together this week! The next 2 weeks are gonna be killer. I asked him if he wanted me to take off the day before MLK day but he said no because he has 6 weeks vacation and its easier for him to take days off and not miss a beat. Ok I can deal with that. What I don't think I can deal with is not seeing him but one or two weeks at a time and for a limited time. That is gonna royally suck.
But today was a John day so it was a happy day. We went bowling. I actually scored over 100 on 2 games. Yay! I had a lot of encouragement though. Lots of hugs and kisses which were very welcome! We had chinese for lunch. We went back to the big one near price chopper. They have a larger selection than the place that I like. Since the big one opened up their food has gotten better. So these days I will eat there. He is so funny. He eats everything seperate and his food can't touch. Everyone has their quirks and that one is his in addition to popping open his fortune cookie open. Doesnt annoy me but apparently one of his ex's it drove them up the wall.
We went back to my house and snuggled. No tv, no movie, just hanging out together on the couch until it was time to pick up Ariel from Asia's. He stuck around for a little while and then went home. I miss him when he leaves. Ariel actually did her homework but it was a struggle as usual. She is sooo easily distracted. I went upstairs to hang out in bed and got caught up in drama...And here comes the drama. Hold on to your shirts boys and girls cuz here we go...
It all started with one of our events in New Jersey...to be continued with all the drama before I end up deleting this post and be really mad!
Anyway, today was a John day. I like John days. We have three days off together this week! The next 2 weeks are gonna be killer. I asked him if he wanted me to take off the day before MLK day but he said no because he has 6 weeks vacation and its easier for him to take days off and not miss a beat. Ok I can deal with that. What I don't think I can deal with is not seeing him but one or two weeks at a time and for a limited time. That is gonna royally suck.
But today was a John day so it was a happy day. We went bowling. I actually scored over 100 on 2 games. Yay! I had a lot of encouragement though. Lots of hugs and kisses which were very welcome! We had chinese for lunch. We went back to the big one near price chopper. They have a larger selection than the place that I like. Since the big one opened up their food has gotten better. So these days I will eat there. He is so funny. He eats everything seperate and his food can't touch. Everyone has their quirks and that one is his in addition to popping open his fortune cookie open. Doesnt annoy me but apparently one of his ex's it drove them up the wall.
We went back to my house and snuggled. No tv, no movie, just hanging out together on the couch until it was time to pick up Ariel from Asia's. He stuck around for a little while and then went home. I miss him when he leaves. Ariel actually did her homework but it was a struggle as usual. She is sooo easily distracted. I went upstairs to hang out in bed and got caught up in drama...And here comes the drama. Hold on to your shirts boys and girls cuz here we go...
It all started with one of our events in New Jersey...to be continued with all the drama before I end up deleting this post and be really mad!
Lazy Tuesday Jan 12
We happily did absolutely nothing today. It was a great day just uneventful. We had breakfast at Denny's and from there we windowshopped across the valley. We hit Riders World, Sam's club, the mall and hung out around the house. I enjoy spending time with John. I don't care if we are bowling, talking, walking, sitting, we just have a great time. He left a little early (in other words didn't pick up Ariel) because it was his daughter, Mackenzie's, birthday. She is now 8yrs old. So she if slightly older than Ariel. We were supposed to have a training at Iyishia's but we just ended up hanging out playing with our iphones. Lol. He texts me pretty regular and even while he was at Mackenzie's house. I am going to get her an R4 adapter for her DSi. He took her to ToysRUS for her birthday presents and I told him he should be discouraging her from buying any DS games but she did anyway. But I texted back and forth with Mackenzie and she made some YouTube videos. So of course I had to tune in and watch. She has a grey/black tiger tabby cat and she recorded him, Romeo, chasing string and other antics. So now i subscribe to her YouTube account. I wish I knew how to do that. I would make some goofy videos of me and Ariel. So we chit chatted a little but I redirected him to spend time with her. He is staying at Mackenzie's tonight ad will come and pick me up in the morning and head out to his house in Catawissa. He asked me if I minded and I said no. I trust him. I have to. It's his daughter. He says he has nothing with her mother and I have to trust that. But it doesnt feel funky. Usually I will get a vibe and this one is cool.
So Ritchie, Iyishia and me sat on the couch with our new jailbroken phones and color themes etc. We never got around to our training. I guess it was kinda lax because Ted wasn't there. It was just us. But it was nice just hanging out. We had some pork chops for dinner and the kids got to play. They approached me aobut keeping Ariel every weekend. I don't mind but I have to change the payee for Coordinated from Katrina to Iyishia because I cannot afford paying her $400 a month to watch Ariel I mean I prolly can but why should I when I have Coordinated funding.
I tried to go to bed early to be up and ready for Wednesday but I drank WAY to much coffee and the last cup with Spanish coffee so I was zipping like crazy. Finally around 3am and lots of Seroquel later, I was able to get to bed. Iyishia is gonna keep Ariel after school so we don't have to rush home from Catawissa. I told her latest we would be back would be 8pm. No bible school this week because the twins are going to Disney on Ice to see Finding Nemo.
On his way out he started kissing my neck. Now he already told me that was a sensitive spot for him and that got him riled up the other day. So now he is doing it to me. I told him to quit and not start something he can't finish. Well his response was "Not in ten minutes" and that was a promising response. We will see...
So Ritchie, Iyishia and me sat on the couch with our new jailbroken phones and color themes etc. We never got around to our training. I guess it was kinda lax because Ted wasn't there. It was just us. But it was nice just hanging out. We had some pork chops for dinner and the kids got to play. They approached me aobut keeping Ariel every weekend. I don't mind but I have to change the payee for Coordinated from Katrina to Iyishia because I cannot afford paying her $400 a month to watch Ariel I mean I prolly can but why should I when I have Coordinated funding.
I tried to go to bed early to be up and ready for Wednesday but I drank WAY to much coffee and the last cup with Spanish coffee so I was zipping like crazy. Finally around 3am and lots of Seroquel later, I was able to get to bed. Iyishia is gonna keep Ariel after school so we don't have to rush home from Catawissa. I told her latest we would be back would be 8pm. No bible school this week because the twins are going to Disney on Ice to see Finding Nemo.
On his way out he started kissing my neck. Now he already told me that was a sensitive spot for him and that got him riled up the other day. So now he is doing it to me. I told him to quit and not start something he can't finish. Well his response was "Not in ten minutes" and that was a promising response. We will see...
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
One more night...
This is Sunday night's post: (I had to write it and save it becuz internet access sucks at work!)
Well, today started off on a good note. Two wakeup calls, yet I stayed in bed because yesterday he said he wanted to sleep in so today I let it go. I guess he was ready at 7:30 because he actually called for me. I have been sleeping well. I think because I am relaxed and a little Seroquel always helps. When I go back to Dr Sharma we are gonna have a little talk about my sleeping patterns. Maybe I can be a candidate for Lunesta or Ambien or something along those lines.
In less than 24 hours I get to see John in the flesh. He text me at around 1pm and asked me what I was doing and I said waiting for him. His response was wont be long. I wonder if he as anxious as I am about being together.
Im trying to take things slow. I have been known to rush into things and I don't want to do that here. I want this to work. It is kind of difficult to move quickly anyway with the limited time we are dealing with. I would love to have an entire day and a night together. Just to be. Not doing anything in particular. Just to be together. i wonder what his house is like. I would like to visit his house. I want to know more about him. What does he do when he isn't at work being the boss? Is he quiet in his own skin? I can sit home in silence and just be. Can he?
Today has been good until now. Mario ate some ham and bean soup and I am the one who suffers the next day as it comes out his system. Otherwise pretty quiet. I canvinced him to watch TBS and the movies that they offer on a Sunday afternoon. Makes the day go by quickly. First, the ending of Yours mine and ours. Then Cheaper by the dozen. Now, Something's gotta give. After this is, at 3:30pm the Heartbreak Kid with Ben Stiller. Don't know what that one is about. All I know that by the time this movie is over it will be 3:30pm and it will be that much closer to dinnertime. After dinner it is all cake. After dinner, he won't stay up very long. Now tomorrow, I must wake up and come downstairs by 7am. I want to get him straight and be done so I can jet out the door at precisely 8am.
If I take the 8:05am bus and catch the #12 bus I can be home in record time. If I don't make the #12 bus since they overlap a bit, I will take a taxi home. I wanna be home as early as possible to clean up, shower and be ready for when John arrives.
I need to catch up with TJ to finish my tattoo. I wanna get the color done and be done with it. I know its gonna be a while before I get the whole piece done all the way to my shoulder I just don't have the money. Well actually I do but I think I am gonna go to Marc's to get it done. No strings attached. No innuendos. No bartering. Just cash and tattoos. I have had enough of TJ's crap. I wanna be able to make an appointment and get my work done. No questions asked. If I thought it was fair I would just go to Marc's now and get it colored. But I don't know if that would work. I mean I am sure they could. Maybe I will see about that just getting the color done at Marc's. I am not sure if they will even touch it because they didn't start it. We will see.
I kind of get embarrassed about my tattoos when I am around people who don't have tattoos. John had a tattoo on his chest to line up with radiation. Like a speck but i dont think that really counts? I am not ashamed of my tattoos and I love them but kind of shows my wild side. I wanna be taken seriously. I don't want it to be a wedge. I have always wanted tattoos. I love them. I love men with them. The more the better. But I don't want a bad boy. I want a real man. And if that man has to be devoid of tattoos, so be it. But where does that leave me. Am I supposed to keep my clothes on all the time. that's not going to work. I want to take my clothes off eventually. NOT THAT WAY..well yeah eventually. But I was talking about summertime and wearing less clothes when you can tell I have tattoos. Well we will cross that bridge when we get to it. I just don't know how he is going to react. I hope well.
We are currently placing our picks for AFC and NFC finals. Be nice for a friendly bet. But he is trying to get me heated with this talk about the NJ Devils. He claims himself a Devils fan. It would make for a really difficult hockey season. I think he is dong it just to get a rise out of me! Grrrr
More to follow...these are my thoughts at the moment. Got more to follow later...
Ok so it's later I just couldnt post because the wireless service here at work SUCKS big time!
So my two teams in Football Playoffs won tonight. He soooo would have lost if we bets on the games. He still has yet to tell me the terms for next week's games. He says we will discuss it tomorrow. So far all I know is it involves cooking. Either he cooks or I cook but I don't know how that works. What if I just wanna test out his cooking skills? He ate Burger King for dinner. Yuk! I can smell the grease as I eat it and that turns my stomach. Yeah I know I 'm a fucking spoiled brat. I had a huge turkey club salad for dinner. Didnt want anything heavy.
He offered to come get me from work. I need to shower and get Mario's smell off me and Lord only knows what kind of stinky mess I am walking into when I go home. I don't want him to smell or see that. I know what I had to contend with last weekend and that's after Brain cleaned up a bit. He gets off at 5:30a so by the time I get home he can leave and at least get a little nap. Driving to my house from Catawissa is enough he doesnt have to drive to Pittston. I will probably take a taxi home from the square anyway. I need to get money from the bank and I have to stop at CVS for some things on the way home. Like air freshener!
It's 9:15pm and I am posting this. I am ready for bed but I have not heard his voice yet today so I will stay up a little longer til he gets back from doing rounds. I don't know who is more excited...him or me. He keeps mentioning that the days are dragging and seems like forever til he sees me again. I am thinking the same thing but I refuse to be a gushy female. Gushy on the inside, firm on the outside. Not hard, just a little soft. LOL I'm a dork. But a happy dork. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I was with Ron for almost 2 years and never felt anxiety with him. If he walked out the door...like he did...I was unphased. I don't want John to walk out the door. I kinda wanna block the door and keep him.
Speaking of Ron, he has my formal dresses! They are in his closet from our last 2 weddings we went to! I thought about calling him to retrieve them. But they are just dresses. I will buy new ones. I don't wanna open that can of worms. But I really liked the cream dress. And me shoes! DAMN IT! Those were nice shoes and broken in. I hope my favorite boots are in the pantry or I will really be upset. But I think I wore them out one day. Oh well. Minimal loss. I would rather let sleeping dogs lie. That would mean having to see him and shoot the shit and I really don't want that. I will gladly just go buy new dresses. It gives me an excuse to go shopping.
Ok he is back so I get to hear his ringtone. His ringtone makes me happy. Of course he probably will never hear it unless he tries to call when I am in the room or leave my phone laying around. Well off I go to talk to my boy. Tomorrow will be a good day.
Good night!
Well, today started off on a good note. Two wakeup calls, yet I stayed in bed because yesterday he said he wanted to sleep in so today I let it go. I guess he was ready at 7:30 because he actually called for me. I have been sleeping well. I think because I am relaxed and a little Seroquel always helps. When I go back to Dr Sharma we are gonna have a little talk about my sleeping patterns. Maybe I can be a candidate for Lunesta or Ambien or something along those lines.
In less than 24 hours I get to see John in the flesh. He text me at around 1pm and asked me what I was doing and I said waiting for him. His response was wont be long. I wonder if he as anxious as I am about being together.
Im trying to take things slow. I have been known to rush into things and I don't want to do that here. I want this to work. It is kind of difficult to move quickly anyway with the limited time we are dealing with. I would love to have an entire day and a night together. Just to be. Not doing anything in particular. Just to be together. i wonder what his house is like. I would like to visit his house. I want to know more about him. What does he do when he isn't at work being the boss? Is he quiet in his own skin? I can sit home in silence and just be. Can he?
Today has been good until now. Mario ate some ham and bean soup and I am the one who suffers the next day as it comes out his system. Otherwise pretty quiet. I canvinced him to watch TBS and the movies that they offer on a Sunday afternoon. Makes the day go by quickly. First, the ending of Yours mine and ours. Then Cheaper by the dozen. Now, Something's gotta give. After this is, at 3:30pm the Heartbreak Kid with Ben Stiller. Don't know what that one is about. All I know that by the time this movie is over it will be 3:30pm and it will be that much closer to dinnertime. After dinner it is all cake. After dinner, he won't stay up very long. Now tomorrow, I must wake up and come downstairs by 7am. I want to get him straight and be done so I can jet out the door at precisely 8am.
If I take the 8:05am bus and catch the #12 bus I can be home in record time. If I don't make the #12 bus since they overlap a bit, I will take a taxi home. I wanna be home as early as possible to clean up, shower and be ready for when John arrives.
I need to catch up with TJ to finish my tattoo. I wanna get the color done and be done with it. I know its gonna be a while before I get the whole piece done all the way to my shoulder I just don't have the money. Well actually I do but I think I am gonna go to Marc's to get it done. No strings attached. No innuendos. No bartering. Just cash and tattoos. I have had enough of TJ's crap. I wanna be able to make an appointment and get my work done. No questions asked. If I thought it was fair I would just go to Marc's now and get it colored. But I don't know if that would work. I mean I am sure they could. Maybe I will see about that just getting the color done at Marc's. I am not sure if they will even touch it because they didn't start it. We will see.
I kind of get embarrassed about my tattoos when I am around people who don't have tattoos. John had a tattoo on his chest to line up with radiation. Like a speck but i dont think that really counts? I am not ashamed of my tattoos and I love them but kind of shows my wild side. I wanna be taken seriously. I don't want it to be a wedge. I have always wanted tattoos. I love them. I love men with them. The more the better. But I don't want a bad boy. I want a real man. And if that man has to be devoid of tattoos, so be it. But where does that leave me. Am I supposed to keep my clothes on all the time. that's not going to work. I want to take my clothes off eventually. NOT THAT WAY..well yeah eventually. But I was talking about summertime and wearing less clothes when you can tell I have tattoos. Well we will cross that bridge when we get to it. I just don't know how he is going to react. I hope well.
We are currently placing our picks for AFC and NFC finals. Be nice for a friendly bet. But he is trying to get me heated with this talk about the NJ Devils. He claims himself a Devils fan. It would make for a really difficult hockey season. I think he is dong it just to get a rise out of me! Grrrr
More to follow...these are my thoughts at the moment. Got more to follow later...
Ok so it's later I just couldnt post because the wireless service here at work SUCKS big time!
So my two teams in Football Playoffs won tonight. He soooo would have lost if we bets on the games. He still has yet to tell me the terms for next week's games. He says we will discuss it tomorrow. So far all I know is it involves cooking. Either he cooks or I cook but I don't know how that works. What if I just wanna test out his cooking skills? He ate Burger King for dinner. Yuk! I can smell the grease as I eat it and that turns my stomach. Yeah I know I 'm a fucking spoiled brat. I had a huge turkey club salad for dinner. Didnt want anything heavy.
He offered to come get me from work. I need to shower and get Mario's smell off me and Lord only knows what kind of stinky mess I am walking into when I go home. I don't want him to smell or see that. I know what I had to contend with last weekend and that's after Brain cleaned up a bit. He gets off at 5:30a so by the time I get home he can leave and at least get a little nap. Driving to my house from Catawissa is enough he doesnt have to drive to Pittston. I will probably take a taxi home from the square anyway. I need to get money from the bank and I have to stop at CVS for some things on the way home. Like air freshener!
It's 9:15pm and I am posting this. I am ready for bed but I have not heard his voice yet today so I will stay up a little longer til he gets back from doing rounds. I don't know who is more excited...him or me. He keeps mentioning that the days are dragging and seems like forever til he sees me again. I am thinking the same thing but I refuse to be a gushy female. Gushy on the inside, firm on the outside. Not hard, just a little soft. LOL I'm a dork. But a happy dork. I haven't felt this way in a long time. I was with Ron for almost 2 years and never felt anxiety with him. If he walked out the door...like he did...I was unphased. I don't want John to walk out the door. I kinda wanna block the door and keep him.
Speaking of Ron, he has my formal dresses! They are in his closet from our last 2 weddings we went to! I thought about calling him to retrieve them. But they are just dresses. I will buy new ones. I don't wanna open that can of worms. But I really liked the cream dress. And me shoes! DAMN IT! Those were nice shoes and broken in. I hope my favorite boots are in the pantry or I will really be upset. But I think I wore them out one day. Oh well. Minimal loss. I would rather let sleeping dogs lie. That would mean having to see him and shoot the shit and I really don't want that. I will gladly just go buy new dresses. It gives me an excuse to go shopping.
Ok he is back so I get to hear his ringtone. His ringtone makes me happy. Of course he probably will never hear it unless he tries to call when I am in the room or leave my phone laying around. Well off I go to talk to my boy. Tomorrow will be a good day.
Good night!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
A quote for the day
I follow Reverend Runs Wisdom on Twitter and very often, like today, he comes up with some really good stuff. So here it is...
Girls want to look perfect for a bunch of guys. A woman wants to look beautiful for one man.
Girls want to look perfect for a bunch of guys. A woman wants to look beautiful for one man.
One more to go!
Well today is day two of my three day swing. It began with my wakeup call from John. A girl could get used to this! He was the last thing I heard when I went to bed and the first voice I heard in the morning. How could it be a bad day?
My Mario was in good spirits today. The day rolled on without a hitch and I got him to venture in the world of cable again...only nothing really good was on. So we watched Ladder 49 and he really didn't like it. He said it was too long. I guess he isnt watching the Lord of the Rings or Avatar. 3hr plus movies. His daughter and son-in-law came over in the afternoon to do the grocery shopping, clean out the litter box and basically Arlene busting his chops. Me and Mario see eye to eye on one very important fact. He is old and wants to be left alone. The man is 80+ years old. Let him sit in his recliner all day if that's what he wants! She brought over some ham n bean soup and he enjoyed that. He actually ate dinner before 5pm after he had a huge bowl of spaghetti for lunch. God bless him he has a healthy appetite. No man in my life, client or otherwise, ever lost a pound with me. I had my soup for dinner so both of us had soup. I brought all these veggies and I have to remember next week not to bring any because I have alot and dont need any here. Just my turkey and I don't even need fruit I have apples here and bread. How I ended up with so much groceries here I will never know. Just happened! As the night went on I had to endure old people trying desperatly to ball room dance and the polka show. Kill me now! The really really sad part is that I knew one of the polka songs. That is bad!
John texted me throughout the day whenever he had a break at work. Mostly we talked about bowling. I can't wait to see this. I am actually looking forward to it. The lanes open at 11am. So he has enough time to take a nap and I have enough time to get home and shower etc before he gets to the house. I don't want him to leave. And I knowright when we pick up Ariel he is gonna go. That sucks. It means I have 5 hours of his time. I guess it could be worse. It could be no time. So I will make the most of our time together. I told him my shoes smelled like the beach so now he is teasing me that I have stinky feet. Not cool. Next time I have to practice keeping random thoughts in my head. I just can't help it sometimes. There is no filter on my mouth. Whatever is in the brain spontaneously comes out before I can catch it ssometimes. Iyishia tells me I have to put it back. So she makes the hand motion of picking up the words and shoving them back in her mouth. it makes me laugh everytime. Sometimes I catch myself doing it.
So I put my Mario to bed and took a nice relaxing shower and talked to John for a bit and was almost about to go to sleep when I remembered I haven't blogged today. So here I am recording my day and thoughts of the day. I guess now I can sleep knowing my commitment is fulfilled tonight.
I spoke to Brian (my brother) and we haven't really spoken since the holidays. Just a random text here and there just to touch base. So I told him about the boy. He is happy for me. Him and Jenn are still in a state of limbo. I know its gonna be a showdown at dusk and she is gonna lose. She doesnt want to leave that means she will have to move back in with Daddy. She is sooo jealous of his exwife Demaris. He would never go back to her and if he even thought about it I would smack him HARD upside the head with a cast iron pan to knock some sense into his head! I don't understand her jealousy though. He is with Jenn. He is faithful. And she has it good in his house. Whatever she is young. I told Brian that was going to be an issue but her went there anyway.
John may text or call me when he is done doing his rounds of the plant. He said he would text first to see if I am awake. I like the thought of his voice being the last thing I hear at night and the first thing I hear in the morning. It makes me happy. he makes me happy. He is a keeper.
So good night my blogging peeps. Until the next episode tomorrow. Good night.
My Mario was in good spirits today. The day rolled on without a hitch and I got him to venture in the world of cable again...only nothing really good was on. So we watched Ladder 49 and he really didn't like it. He said it was too long. I guess he isnt watching the Lord of the Rings or Avatar. 3hr plus movies. His daughter and son-in-law came over in the afternoon to do the grocery shopping, clean out the litter box and basically Arlene busting his chops. Me and Mario see eye to eye on one very important fact. He is old and wants to be left alone. The man is 80+ years old. Let him sit in his recliner all day if that's what he wants! She brought over some ham n bean soup and he enjoyed that. He actually ate dinner before 5pm after he had a huge bowl of spaghetti for lunch. God bless him he has a healthy appetite. No man in my life, client or otherwise, ever lost a pound with me. I had my soup for dinner so both of us had soup. I brought all these veggies and I have to remember next week not to bring any because I have alot and dont need any here. Just my turkey and I don't even need fruit I have apples here and bread. How I ended up with so much groceries here I will never know. Just happened! As the night went on I had to endure old people trying desperatly to ball room dance and the polka show. Kill me now! The really really sad part is that I knew one of the polka songs. That is bad!
John texted me throughout the day whenever he had a break at work. Mostly we talked about bowling. I can't wait to see this. I am actually looking forward to it. The lanes open at 11am. So he has enough time to take a nap and I have enough time to get home and shower etc before he gets to the house. I don't want him to leave. And I knowright when we pick up Ariel he is gonna go. That sucks. It means I have 5 hours of his time. I guess it could be worse. It could be no time. So I will make the most of our time together. I told him my shoes smelled like the beach so now he is teasing me that I have stinky feet. Not cool. Next time I have to practice keeping random thoughts in my head. I just can't help it sometimes. There is no filter on my mouth. Whatever is in the brain spontaneously comes out before I can catch it ssometimes. Iyishia tells me I have to put it back. So she makes the hand motion of picking up the words and shoving them back in her mouth. it makes me laugh everytime. Sometimes I catch myself doing it.
So I put my Mario to bed and took a nice relaxing shower and talked to John for a bit and was almost about to go to sleep when I remembered I haven't blogged today. So here I am recording my day and thoughts of the day. I guess now I can sleep knowing my commitment is fulfilled tonight.
I spoke to Brian (my brother) and we haven't really spoken since the holidays. Just a random text here and there just to touch base. So I told him about the boy. He is happy for me. Him and Jenn are still in a state of limbo. I know its gonna be a showdown at dusk and she is gonna lose. She doesnt want to leave that means she will have to move back in with Daddy. She is sooo jealous of his exwife Demaris. He would never go back to her and if he even thought about it I would smack him HARD upside the head with a cast iron pan to knock some sense into his head! I don't understand her jealousy though. He is with Jenn. He is faithful. And she has it good in his house. Whatever she is young. I told Brian that was going to be an issue but her went there anyway.
John may text or call me when he is done doing his rounds of the plant. He said he would text first to see if I am awake. I like the thought of his voice being the last thing I hear at night and the first thing I hear in the morning. It makes me happy. he makes me happy. He is a keeper.
So good night my blogging peeps. Until the next episode tomorrow. Good night.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Back to work!
My usual Friday is back to work. It started on a good foot. The first thing I heard in the morning was John's voice. That is a nice thing! I actually looked forward to it. He says he will give me a wake up call from now on. That's fine by me.
I started on time but I gotta put a weekly standing order for my taxi for Friday mornings. Transportation money for Fridays. Screw getting up and taking the bus. Maybe in the summer I will go back to that schedule. NO SCRATCH that idea. I WILL have a car by summer! So I just have to muddle my way through til April. I have to start banking money now plus my bonus money in April. I got to work on time despite the road conditions. And all I had to bring to work was my groceries. I forgot my medicine though. Katrina met me at John Heinz where my client has his physical therapy and brought me my medicine. So my day went by pretty quickly today. Went by so quick that we forgot all about Jeopardy!
John has texted throughout the day which is nice. Also distracts me from my day. Other than that I spent the latter part of my day playing iSpy Funhouse on my DS. Lol! I get paid to play video games. Sweet deal. My client was strong today and even after physical therapy wearing him out, I stil only helped him minimally. Good news for my back! He said Earl started to complain about his back hurting during this week. Who knows what that story is about.
I wrote down John's schedule when he gave it to me last night so I don't have to keep asking him and I can kind of get an idea of when I can see him whenever our schedules match up. The beginnings of the month seem to be the best for maximum days together. I also don't want to monopolize his time. He has other commitments too. And there are two days that I am gonna see if I can swap out with Earl so I can see him and not so many days inbetween. His birthday we are both off. Valentines day he is off and I am putting in for it. and we both work on my birthday. We can celebrate another day. No big deal. Last birthday in 2009, Ron and I were together and I was off. He avoided me so I spent the day by myself watching tv because I had arranged for a play date for Ariel and I feel bad to cancel her dates if mine fall through. Birthday of 2008, I was working in California. No presents, no cake, no fanfare, just me. So I am used to doing nothing for my birthday. It's just another day.
We are going bowling on Monday. This should be interesting! I always land on my ass at least once or end up going down the lane in a split. He has his own shoes and ball but claims to have not played in like two years. He said we can place bets. We agreed that the first game is practice and I get a free bowling lesson. Something about boards and nev er look at the pins. Well then what are u supposed to look at? I guess i will find out what boards he is talking about, because last time I checked there was the alley, bumpers, the gutter and the pins. Boards? Then is talking about 4 or 5 step approach. This could get ugly. But I am sure we will have fun. We will also be there during the day probably by ourselves. Most people don't bowl in the middle of the day. We can have privacy and not have anyone laughing at my ass hitting the floor!
After Mario went to bed, John got a chance to talk to me for a little while before he did his plant rounds again. We were talking about dogs and my bad experiences with them. Dogs like me...a little too much. Apparently, I taste really good because dogs love to bite me. It's always the dogs that their owners claim they are docile and would never hurt a fly that come after me. I will stick to parrots and cats. Asia's border collies are cool. They are my buddies. I play fetch with them all the time and they neger grow tired of it and I find it amusing. Until Reilly or Sierra try to lick my face! Yuk! I will play fetch with a dog all day but please don't come near my face or anything and lick. Gross! John teased me that he will remember to lick my face. He better not! I will make sure I wash my face after every meal or snack just to make sure there is nothing tempting. LOL.
He claims he is a mind reader when i told him that I was thinking about the whole bowling thing for Monday. So I asked him what was on my mind at that moment? He refused to answer. I was thinking about his lips and I wanted to kiss them again. But I dont wanna wait til he is leaving to kiss him. I want to be greeted with a kiss. And in between. If only I could explain his lips. I will leave that up to the poets. I am just a blogger pouring my guts out to people unknown. Just to get it out. Just to share. Just to feel like somebody might be listening. Who else is gonna listen? My married/parental friends?I only pray that they can feel the spark and newness of their relationship like I have right now. I wish they could step outside their lives if but only one day or even a few hours and be boyfriend/girlfriend again and act like starcrossed lovers. As awkward as it is for 2 completely grown ass people to "date"...so far so good. I have no complaints. And for the time/scheduling thing. We will find a way. We will make the time.
So I say BE BOLD! Live forth without the stigma of consequences and gossip fodder. Be yourself and live in the moment! Love me like you will never see me again. Even in sadness their is hope. And in fear there is faith. And in bitterness there is always love. Because without these things we cannot see the contrasts of our emotions. One is nothing without the other. But I wish for the latters...hope faith and love. Have never let me down yet.
Good night all.
I started on time but I gotta put a weekly standing order for my taxi for Friday mornings. Transportation money for Fridays. Screw getting up and taking the bus. Maybe in the summer I will go back to that schedule. NO SCRATCH that idea. I WILL have a car by summer! So I just have to muddle my way through til April. I have to start banking money now plus my bonus money in April. I got to work on time despite the road conditions. And all I had to bring to work was my groceries. I forgot my medicine though. Katrina met me at John Heinz where my client has his physical therapy and brought me my medicine. So my day went by pretty quickly today. Went by so quick that we forgot all about Jeopardy!
John has texted throughout the day which is nice. Also distracts me from my day. Other than that I spent the latter part of my day playing iSpy Funhouse on my DS. Lol! I get paid to play video games. Sweet deal. My client was strong today and even after physical therapy wearing him out, I stil only helped him minimally. Good news for my back! He said Earl started to complain about his back hurting during this week. Who knows what that story is about.
I wrote down John's schedule when he gave it to me last night so I don't have to keep asking him and I can kind of get an idea of when I can see him whenever our schedules match up. The beginnings of the month seem to be the best for maximum days together. I also don't want to monopolize his time. He has other commitments too. And there are two days that I am gonna see if I can swap out with Earl so I can see him and not so many days inbetween. His birthday we are both off. Valentines day he is off and I am putting in for it. and we both work on my birthday. We can celebrate another day. No big deal. Last birthday in 2009, Ron and I were together and I was off. He avoided me so I spent the day by myself watching tv because I had arranged for a play date for Ariel and I feel bad to cancel her dates if mine fall through. Birthday of 2008, I was working in California. No presents, no cake, no fanfare, just me. So I am used to doing nothing for my birthday. It's just another day.
We are going bowling on Monday. This should be interesting! I always land on my ass at least once or end up going down the lane in a split. He has his own shoes and ball but claims to have not played in like two years. He said we can place bets. We agreed that the first game is practice and I get a free bowling lesson. Something about boards and nev er look at the pins. Well then what are u supposed to look at? I guess i will find out what boards he is talking about, because last time I checked there was the alley, bumpers, the gutter and the pins. Boards? Then is talking about 4 or 5 step approach. This could get ugly. But I am sure we will have fun. We will also be there during the day probably by ourselves. Most people don't bowl in the middle of the day. We can have privacy and not have anyone laughing at my ass hitting the floor!
After Mario went to bed, John got a chance to talk to me for a little while before he did his plant rounds again. We were talking about dogs and my bad experiences with them. Dogs like me...a little too much. Apparently, I taste really good because dogs love to bite me. It's always the dogs that their owners claim they are docile and would never hurt a fly that come after me. I will stick to parrots and cats. Asia's border collies are cool. They are my buddies. I play fetch with them all the time and they neger grow tired of it and I find it amusing. Until Reilly or Sierra try to lick my face! Yuk! I will play fetch with a dog all day but please don't come near my face or anything and lick. Gross! John teased me that he will remember to lick my face. He better not! I will make sure I wash my face after every meal or snack just to make sure there is nothing tempting. LOL.
He claims he is a mind reader when i told him that I was thinking about the whole bowling thing for Monday. So I asked him what was on my mind at that moment? He refused to answer. I was thinking about his lips and I wanted to kiss them again. But I dont wanna wait til he is leaving to kiss him. I want to be greeted with a kiss. And in between. If only I could explain his lips. I will leave that up to the poets. I am just a blogger pouring my guts out to people unknown. Just to get it out. Just to share. Just to feel like somebody might be listening. Who else is gonna listen? My married/parental friends?I only pray that they can feel the spark and newness of their relationship like I have right now. I wish they could step outside their lives if but only one day or even a few hours and be boyfriend/girlfriend again and act like starcrossed lovers. As awkward as it is for 2 completely grown ass people to "date"...so far so good. I have no complaints. And for the time/scheduling thing. We will find a way. We will make the time.
So I say BE BOLD! Live forth without the stigma of consequences and gossip fodder. Be yourself and live in the moment! Love me like you will never see me again. Even in sadness their is hope. And in fear there is faith. And in bitterness there is always love. Because without these things we cannot see the contrasts of our emotions. One is nothing without the other. But I wish for the latters...hope faith and love. Have never let me down yet.
Good night all.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Slacking off again! but I'm still good.
Well today was a truly insignificant day. Most of the day was spent sleeping. It will be a miracle if I get any sleep tonight.
Yesterday, I feel accomplished though. I thought it would be a lazy day at home but it wasnt. Thankfully, my calendar DID save when I switched phones. And to my surprise a reminder message of GYN appointment popped up. So off to Geisinger I went as I dropped off Ariel to Asia's house. It took up most of my morning and I was just anxious to get home so I took a taxi home since I had JUST missed the bus from Geisinger and the next one didnt come for an hour. It's ok I would have still been waiting at Public Square for a bus had I been home for more than an hour. When I went, they still had me down for inserting a Mirena IUD but I changed back to using DepoPrvera shot. It has worked all this time. Not to mention, I love the whole not getting a menstrual cycle "side effect" it has to offer! Not that I am sexually active at the moment but gotta be prepared.
In the afternoon, I spoke to John fora little bit and then he was off to the Penguins game....which I was still jeallous about. But I went online and listened to the game. It sounded like a hell of a game. Norfolk scored early but 2nd and 3rd periods were rallied but the Penguins but they couldnt tie up up and lost 5-4. Oh well! We will get'm next time boys! John didn't get home until late and I actually went to bed early. I was in bed by 10:30-11pm. And I slept hard.
I woke up easily. I guess since I went to bed so early. I was tempted to text him early knowing he is an early bird, but he said he might sleep in so I didn't just in case. He texted me good morning at 9:35am. And I fell back asleep. I guess I needed a second wind nap. I felt bad thought because I thoroughly enjoy his conversations. I finally snapped out of it around 11:30am and replied. He thought I fell down the steps! Not quite, but I guess that idea got stuck in his head. As much as I don't want people to worry about me, It was kind of nice that someone cared enough to worry. He got his motorcycle today and he sent me a picture. It's a good looking bike for an older model. He asked me if I would ride with him. I will once he gets used to riding by himself. He is a new rider. I really enjoy talking with him and we spoke throughout the day until around 3pm when he laid down for a nap before work.
Stacy and Chris came over today to pick up the kittys medicine. I have to stop feeding them wet food because it gives them yucky diarhea poops. I really wish they wouldnt poop on the rug behind my dining room table! So only dry food from now on! I will give them wet food during the week when I am home to monitor them. I hope their bowel movements straighten themselves out. I think I will need a second litter box and I will put it in that corner. I really dont want a litter box on the carpet and have to vaccuum all the time but I would rather do that than clean up poop off the carpet then have to scrub it clean.
I did the dishes, tried some laundry, made grilled cheese sandwiches and bummed around the house most of the day. I spoke to Katrina about getting Ariel's stuff back from her house and we went food shopping. I had the extra R4 chip and she bought it off me for $30. Danielle came with her to pick me up and I loaded a whole bunch of games on her chip. She is a happy girl. I'm glad. I didn't really have anything to do with the chip so at least Danielle will make good use of it. Happy Christmas present!
Katrina is buying Donna's house on Waller Street right next to hers. She should close on it in about 3 months. I think I will be moving into that house. It is a nicer house and around the same size as mine. Three bedrooms one bath. Basically the same layout as mine except one more bedroom on the second floor and full finished attic like mine. But everything is drywall. I hate all this paneling anyway. Katrina said not to jump pn it too quick because they arent even closed and she has to get rid of the tenants that are currently in the hosue. She said she doesn't like them because they are loud and partyers and flambouyantly gay. They just put all their business in the street and she doesnt wanna deal with it. She lives next door! It would mean that Ariel would go to Kistler with Danielle and I need a PPNL account not UGI. So lets see if over the summer I move in there. Hey I will have a pool next door! Cool and our trampoline. Its a nicer house than mine. Actually having to move is gonna be a bitch but I just need to rent a truck. At least it is the same size as my house. The perks are newer appliances, but its electric, still has gas heat, nicer bathroom, nicer finished yard, a driveway YAY, a nice porch and a seperate dining room. I get to have an office/guest room on the second floor which will be nice. So we will see what happens. The rent will be $700 a month but the other expenses will be the same except trash has to be put in those blue Wilkes Barre garbage bags.
Went food shopping today. I didn't have any produce or lunch meat or bananas to take to work. God forbid I don't have my cereal and bananas in the morning! So all my stuff is at work already besides my food. So I have minimal stuff to carry to work in the morning. Now just to take a shower and do my hair tonight and I will be ready to go. The cool part about this weekend is that John works Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday and then off Mon-whenever and I get off at 8am on Monday. So we actually have all week to hang out. That's cool. We only got to hang out Monday and Tuesday this week. But believe me I'm not complaining!
I acutally missed him yesterday while he was at the hockey game. He usually texts me throughout the night and I missed it. Of course, people come out of the woodwork as soon as you start dating someone. Well, here they come out of the woodwork! Jeff barely knows me and wants to wine and dine me. No dice sorry! Paul thinks I met his Mom so we should be married! Boy is he mistaken! He really weirded me out with that! I didn't think it was "a joke" when someone says I have a mother in law. Like hell I don't! And then Kevin thinks I will even give him a chance. Too young is age and behaviors. Anyway, I'm not interested. I really like John. Let's see where this goes...
Well, it's sandwich night here at home. Got cold cuts and fresh bread and macaroni salad. Yummy! Didn't feel like cooking and leftovers that were just gonna sit in the refridgerator over the weekend. I am gonna take my chicken soup to work. That should be a nice lunch. Mario will like it. He likes soups. Gotta meet up with Katrina tomorrow and hit the mac machine for the rent money. I didn't even think that I was gonna be at work on the 8th but we got it straightened out.
Ariel will be at Iyishia's house this weekend. I will be at work. Hopefully I will have internet service! I will have plenty of movies to watch though. Oh! The hangover actually played on John's DVD player. That means I need to get a newer DVD player because it wont play on my DVD player. I guess because it's an older model. DVD players are so cheap these days anyway. Also, it's easier than using DVD flick to convert torrents to DVDs. That means I don't have to convert them and be able to burn them and play them. I'm glad he was able to see it. He said he liked it. I thought it was a funny funny movie.
I think we are going to go to bed early again tonight so I don't have to worry about waking up. I already basically have everything that I need for work ready to go. I just need to pick out some scrubs to wear tomorrow and I am good to go. I have to put Ariel's overnight bag together but that is painless.
John just called me from work. Caught me completely off guard because he called me from his office number. I put it into my phone so I will know it's him next time. He told me he has photos of Ariel on his computer. I guess they transferred over when I hooked up my phone to show him how music etc would show up on itunes. I don't care. Just there are no pix of me. Sad face. Only pics of Ariel, my cats and my client. I guess he really doesnt need a pic of my client. LOL I am surprised he called me from work, but happy he did. He went over his schedule for the rest of the month. It looks like we will be able to spend a few days together after all. When he calls me back, because Ariel needed my help with her homework, we will go over it together. I have to look at a calendar to be able to follow a schedule. I will write it down so I know! I wanna see if he is off Martin Luther King Day. If he is off I will stay off. If he is working I will offer to work that day for Earl. I will opt to take off whatever day John is off since his schedule gets pretty hairy. I want to be able to spend time with him so I will try and see how I can work it out since his schedule is more concrete than mine. Friday and Mondays are easy enough to swap. We will see how this pans out.
Well I am gonna sign off for now...let's see how it goes........my future is so birght I gotta wear shades.
Yesterday, I feel accomplished though. I thought it would be a lazy day at home but it wasnt. Thankfully, my calendar DID save when I switched phones. And to my surprise a reminder message of GYN appointment popped up. So off to Geisinger I went as I dropped off Ariel to Asia's house. It took up most of my morning and I was just anxious to get home so I took a taxi home since I had JUST missed the bus from Geisinger and the next one didnt come for an hour. It's ok I would have still been waiting at Public Square for a bus had I been home for more than an hour. When I went, they still had me down for inserting a Mirena IUD but I changed back to using DepoPrvera shot. It has worked all this time. Not to mention, I love the whole not getting a menstrual cycle "side effect" it has to offer! Not that I am sexually active at the moment but gotta be prepared.
In the afternoon, I spoke to John fora little bit and then he was off to the Penguins game....which I was still jeallous about. But I went online and listened to the game. It sounded like a hell of a game. Norfolk scored early but 2nd and 3rd periods were rallied but the Penguins but they couldnt tie up up and lost 5-4. Oh well! We will get'm next time boys! John didn't get home until late and I actually went to bed early. I was in bed by 10:30-11pm. And I slept hard.
I woke up easily. I guess since I went to bed so early. I was tempted to text him early knowing he is an early bird, but he said he might sleep in so I didn't just in case. He texted me good morning at 9:35am. And I fell back asleep. I guess I needed a second wind nap. I felt bad thought because I thoroughly enjoy his conversations. I finally snapped out of it around 11:30am and replied. He thought I fell down the steps! Not quite, but I guess that idea got stuck in his head. As much as I don't want people to worry about me, It was kind of nice that someone cared enough to worry. He got his motorcycle today and he sent me a picture. It's a good looking bike for an older model. He asked me if I would ride with him. I will once he gets used to riding by himself. He is a new rider. I really enjoy talking with him and we spoke throughout the day until around 3pm when he laid down for a nap before work.
Stacy and Chris came over today to pick up the kittys medicine. I have to stop feeding them wet food because it gives them yucky diarhea poops. I really wish they wouldnt poop on the rug behind my dining room table! So only dry food from now on! I will give them wet food during the week when I am home to monitor them. I hope their bowel movements straighten themselves out. I think I will need a second litter box and I will put it in that corner. I really dont want a litter box on the carpet and have to vaccuum all the time but I would rather do that than clean up poop off the carpet then have to scrub it clean.
I did the dishes, tried some laundry, made grilled cheese sandwiches and bummed around the house most of the day. I spoke to Katrina about getting Ariel's stuff back from her house and we went food shopping. I had the extra R4 chip and she bought it off me for $30. Danielle came with her to pick me up and I loaded a whole bunch of games on her chip. She is a happy girl. I'm glad. I didn't really have anything to do with the chip so at least Danielle will make good use of it. Happy Christmas present!
Katrina is buying Donna's house on Waller Street right next to hers. She should close on it in about 3 months. I think I will be moving into that house. It is a nicer house and around the same size as mine. Three bedrooms one bath. Basically the same layout as mine except one more bedroom on the second floor and full finished attic like mine. But everything is drywall. I hate all this paneling anyway. Katrina said not to jump pn it too quick because they arent even closed and she has to get rid of the tenants that are currently in the hosue. She said she doesn't like them because they are loud and partyers and flambouyantly gay. They just put all their business in the street and she doesnt wanna deal with it. She lives next door! It would mean that Ariel would go to Kistler with Danielle and I need a PPNL account not UGI. So lets see if over the summer I move in there. Hey I will have a pool next door! Cool and our trampoline. Its a nicer house than mine. Actually having to move is gonna be a bitch but I just need to rent a truck. At least it is the same size as my house. The perks are newer appliances, but its electric, still has gas heat, nicer bathroom, nicer finished yard, a driveway YAY, a nice porch and a seperate dining room. I get to have an office/guest room on the second floor which will be nice. So we will see what happens. The rent will be $700 a month but the other expenses will be the same except trash has to be put in those blue Wilkes Barre garbage bags.
Went food shopping today. I didn't have any produce or lunch meat or bananas to take to work. God forbid I don't have my cereal and bananas in the morning! So all my stuff is at work already besides my food. So I have minimal stuff to carry to work in the morning. Now just to take a shower and do my hair tonight and I will be ready to go. The cool part about this weekend is that John works Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday and then off Mon-whenever and I get off at 8am on Monday. So we actually have all week to hang out. That's cool. We only got to hang out Monday and Tuesday this week. But believe me I'm not complaining!
I acutally missed him yesterday while he was at the hockey game. He usually texts me throughout the night and I missed it. Of course, people come out of the woodwork as soon as you start dating someone. Well, here they come out of the woodwork! Jeff barely knows me and wants to wine and dine me. No dice sorry! Paul thinks I met his Mom so we should be married! Boy is he mistaken! He really weirded me out with that! I didn't think it was "a joke" when someone says I have a mother in law. Like hell I don't! And then Kevin thinks I will even give him a chance. Too young is age and behaviors. Anyway, I'm not interested. I really like John. Let's see where this goes...
Well, it's sandwich night here at home. Got cold cuts and fresh bread and macaroni salad. Yummy! Didn't feel like cooking and leftovers that were just gonna sit in the refridgerator over the weekend. I am gonna take my chicken soup to work. That should be a nice lunch. Mario will like it. He likes soups. Gotta meet up with Katrina tomorrow and hit the mac machine for the rent money. I didn't even think that I was gonna be at work on the 8th but we got it straightened out.
Ariel will be at Iyishia's house this weekend. I will be at work. Hopefully I will have internet service! I will have plenty of movies to watch though. Oh! The hangover actually played on John's DVD player. That means I need to get a newer DVD player because it wont play on my DVD player. I guess because it's an older model. DVD players are so cheap these days anyway. Also, it's easier than using DVD flick to convert torrents to DVDs. That means I don't have to convert them and be able to burn them and play them. I'm glad he was able to see it. He said he liked it. I thought it was a funny funny movie.
I think we are going to go to bed early again tonight so I don't have to worry about waking up. I already basically have everything that I need for work ready to go. I just need to pick out some scrubs to wear tomorrow and I am good to go. I have to put Ariel's overnight bag together but that is painless.
John just called me from work. Caught me completely off guard because he called me from his office number. I put it into my phone so I will know it's him next time. He told me he has photos of Ariel on his computer. I guess they transferred over when I hooked up my phone to show him how music etc would show up on itunes. I don't care. Just there are no pix of me. Sad face. Only pics of Ariel, my cats and my client. I guess he really doesnt need a pic of my client. LOL I am surprised he called me from work, but happy he did. He went over his schedule for the rest of the month. It looks like we will be able to spend a few days together after all. When he calls me back, because Ariel needed my help with her homework, we will go over it together. I have to look at a calendar to be able to follow a schedule. I will write it down so I know! I wanna see if he is off Martin Luther King Day. If he is off I will stay off. If he is working I will offer to work that day for Earl. I will opt to take off whatever day John is off since his schedule gets pretty hairy. I want to be able to spend time with him so I will try and see how I can work it out since his schedule is more concrete than mine. Friday and Mondays are easy enough to swap. We will see how this pans out.
Well I am gonna sign off for now...let's see how it goes........my future is so birght I gotta wear shades.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
A poem by Me
Like a sunflower to light
Time bestows strength and might
A life life righteous and true
Brings luck and love to you
So just wait out the days
And make your mistakes along the way
So when fated paths cross that day
You will be ready to begin again
Me
Time bestows strength and might
A life life righteous and true
Brings luck and love to you
So just wait out the days
And make your mistakes along the way
So when fated paths cross that day
You will be ready to begin again
Me
Here we are...
I hope I'm not obsessing or boring anyone with my banter but honestly I have nothing else going on. My life is pretty boring and this is the most exciting thing that has happened besides Xmas and that was pretty quiet and uneventful. Welcome to my life. This is exciting as it gets.
So 9am appointment and of course I oversleep. I almost was late dropping Ariel off for school. 8:20 and we are flying out the door. On the way out John texted me Good Morning. Battery dead. He is delayed charging it up. YES! My salvation! I get to shower with ease. Won't be here until 10-10:30am and stopping in Berwick to take care of paperwork. I appreciate the phone call. Again, a topic of discussion from yeterday. Being stood up and not calling. He was good enough to text and say he would be late "but still coming". I even had time to straighten my hair and not do the wild thing today. I need a haircut BAD! Maybe I will see if Jenna can cut my hair tomorrow or Thursday. Also gotta make an appointment to get my shot.
John showed up at around 10:30am as noted and brought his laptop. We set up his iTunes, synced his phone, backed it up and he is ready to go. It was pretty quick because he doesn't have much on his phone because he wasn't able to download anything without an itunes account. Then a crash course into his iPhone. He showed me pix of his new motorcycle. He is signing the title and paperwork tomorrow and maybe delivered? I don't know. We went to lunch. We were gonna go to Applebee's but eyed the chinese buffet along the way. We went to enter and got turned away at the door! Power outage! I guess someone didn't pay their electric bill because the other businesses on the strip were unaffected. Planet fitness would be hit hard if that was the case and they are immediately adjacent to the restaurant. So we went to the one across the way by PriceChopper. Food was good and we were hungry. I was sooo full. I could have seriously taken a nap right then! We went back to the house and watched a movie. If anyone wants to know a review for the movie "Doubt" DONT DO IT! unless you are really bored, need a 2 hour nap or have watched everything else and ran out of options. But we both muddled through it. Lol. By the time the movie was over it was pretty much time to get Ariel. So we went to pick her up at Asia's. We came back and I had a training over at Iyishia's she texted me earlier and John waitied til I found out what time it was just in case I needed a ride. That was sweet. Training wasn't until 6:30pm so Iyishia was gonna pick us up at 6pm. good amount of time to get dinner in Ariel and then head out. I sent her to change out of her school clothes and John and I were alone again. Another kiss. Arms wrapped. Longer. Still soft. Not aggressive. Nice. And a peck for the road. I told him I would be done by 8-8:30pm and I was. Presentation by Hunter Gray from the Palm Springs convention. He is such a great public speaker. He is young and vibrant. He makes me happy. Makes training fly by. He texted me as I was trying to get out the door. Freakin' Ted and Ritchie are the two slowest things around! If it was Iyishia I would've been home by then. But these are the things I have to deal with since I dont have a car. Dependant on others unfortunately. We text back and forth til I got home and no sooner did I walk in the door he called. Faster than texting. Good timing too! We spoke for a ittle bit and then the sand man caught a grip on him. Past his bedtime.
So I watched the rest of the Penguins game 5-2 win. Nice third quarter that I caught! Awesome two hat tricks. Staahl was on fire! John is going to the Pens game tomorrow night. I wish I was going and in the luxury box too! Fantastic! Hopefully it will be on tv so I can at least watch the game. I have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING besides possibly making appointments tomorrow because Ariel has school and then Bible school on Wednesdays. John is carpooling with the group from work so I won't be able to see him tomorrow. But we have the same off days next week. So we can see each other on Monday? He goes back to work on Thursday third shift 12 hour swing. Rough! I go back to work on Friday and we both get off for Monday and all week! Sweet. I think we have potential...
So here I am pouring my life out. No one else to listen. Iyishia is happy for me but is so hung up with her pregnancy and drama with Ritchie to pay much attention. Maybe I can hang out with her tomorrow and chat. We haven't hung out since Christmas. Unfortunately, I was unable to attend her New Year's Party. I wish I could have but I had already commited to working.
I hope somebody finds this all useful or at minimum entertaining. This is the story of my life. Hopefully this will be a better year. Its starting off good! More to come with good faith
Good night!
So 9am appointment and of course I oversleep. I almost was late dropping Ariel off for school. 8:20 and we are flying out the door. On the way out John texted me Good Morning. Battery dead. He is delayed charging it up. YES! My salvation! I get to shower with ease. Won't be here until 10-10:30am and stopping in Berwick to take care of paperwork. I appreciate the phone call. Again, a topic of discussion from yeterday. Being stood up and not calling. He was good enough to text and say he would be late "but still coming". I even had time to straighten my hair and not do the wild thing today. I need a haircut BAD! Maybe I will see if Jenna can cut my hair tomorrow or Thursday. Also gotta make an appointment to get my shot.
John showed up at around 10:30am as noted and brought his laptop. We set up his iTunes, synced his phone, backed it up and he is ready to go. It was pretty quick because he doesn't have much on his phone because he wasn't able to download anything without an itunes account. Then a crash course into his iPhone. He showed me pix of his new motorcycle. He is signing the title and paperwork tomorrow and maybe delivered? I don't know. We went to lunch. We were gonna go to Applebee's but eyed the chinese buffet along the way. We went to enter and got turned away at the door! Power outage! I guess someone didn't pay their electric bill because the other businesses on the strip were unaffected. Planet fitness would be hit hard if that was the case and they are immediately adjacent to the restaurant. So we went to the one across the way by PriceChopper. Food was good and we were hungry. I was sooo full. I could have seriously taken a nap right then! We went back to the house and watched a movie. If anyone wants to know a review for the movie "Doubt" DONT DO IT! unless you are really bored, need a 2 hour nap or have watched everything else and ran out of options. But we both muddled through it. Lol. By the time the movie was over it was pretty much time to get Ariel. So we went to pick her up at Asia's. We came back and I had a training over at Iyishia's she texted me earlier and John waitied til I found out what time it was just in case I needed a ride. That was sweet. Training wasn't until 6:30pm so Iyishia was gonna pick us up at 6pm. good amount of time to get dinner in Ariel and then head out. I sent her to change out of her school clothes and John and I were alone again. Another kiss. Arms wrapped. Longer. Still soft. Not aggressive. Nice. And a peck for the road. I told him I would be done by 8-8:30pm and I was. Presentation by Hunter Gray from the Palm Springs convention. He is such a great public speaker. He is young and vibrant. He makes me happy. Makes training fly by. He texted me as I was trying to get out the door. Freakin' Ted and Ritchie are the two slowest things around! If it was Iyishia I would've been home by then. But these are the things I have to deal with since I dont have a car. Dependant on others unfortunately. We text back and forth til I got home and no sooner did I walk in the door he called. Faster than texting. Good timing too! We spoke for a ittle bit and then the sand man caught a grip on him. Past his bedtime.
So I watched the rest of the Penguins game 5-2 win. Nice third quarter that I caught! Awesome two hat tricks. Staahl was on fire! John is going to the Pens game tomorrow night. I wish I was going and in the luxury box too! Fantastic! Hopefully it will be on tv so I can at least watch the game. I have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING besides possibly making appointments tomorrow because Ariel has school and then Bible school on Wednesdays. John is carpooling with the group from work so I won't be able to see him tomorrow. But we have the same off days next week. So we can see each other on Monday? He goes back to work on Thursday third shift 12 hour swing. Rough! I go back to work on Friday and we both get off for Monday and all week! Sweet. I think we have potential...
So here I am pouring my life out. No one else to listen. Iyishia is happy for me but is so hung up with her pregnancy and drama with Ritchie to pay much attention. Maybe I can hang out with her tomorrow and chat. We haven't hung out since Christmas. Unfortunately, I was unable to attend her New Year's Party. I wish I could have but I had already commited to working.
I hope somebody finds this all useful or at minimum entertaining. This is the story of my life. Hopefully this will be a better year. Its starting off good! More to come with good faith
Good night!
Almost caught up!
Well I got home right around 9. I had 2 hours to deal with....until he called. He was coming early! Aw crap! So I jumped in the shower and got busy. I packed up my stuff to take down to Allentown and see what was up with that. Didn't have time to really do my hair so it did the wild thing yesterday.
So he showed up around 10:15-10:30am...not too bad just a little early. He came in briefly and checked out Ringo and the boys and off to Allentown we went. I haven't been to Allentown in a while but we got directions to the mall from the turnpike attendent. Pretty straight forward. We got there just before 11:45am. Couldn't check in until 12noon so we went a wandering til we could check in. So we went to the Williams Sonoma store. Right up my alley! I could stare at kitchen gadgets all day and feel up the rubber spatula and be in heaven. I would have sat there and read cookbooks all day and took notes. LOL!
Well, I check in and get seen promptly at my appointed time. Bonus points for Apple. The tech tried to sync my phone and looked up my case in the computer and that was it! He handed me a brand new iPhone. Not a refurbished one. A brand new one! I definitely love and swear by Apple now. So I had an empty phone but a new one. I had to wait til I got home to put all my stuff back on my phone from the backup on my computer. John has an iphone but needs help. He can't download stuff becasuse he doesn't have an Apple account set up and hasn't DL i8tunes to his computer. We are gonna have to change that so he can use his phone to what it was intended and not just texts and phone calls. There is a whole world in the iphone. I wouldn't change mine for anything other than a newer model or bigger hard drive.
So we had plenty of time to hang out so we went roaming around the mall in search of a new case for my phone to replace the pink one that truly did its service for the last year and can be retired with pride. I found a silver and purple butterfly one. It's very cute and I made the clerk get one that wasnt chipped from his comrade on the other level. So I got my case for my phone. We roamed around killing time checking out the stores and they had a Disney store. So, of course, I got Ariel a Little Mermaid sweatshirt that has her name on it. John found a cologne/perfume dealer and got a nice deal on a huge bottle of Drakkar. I like that smell. Curve for men too. Makes for weakness in the knees. Lol. We had a lot of time to talk and talk we did. Im so glad he is chatty like me. At least I wasnt the only one doing the talking, like I was talking to myself. It was refreshing. Both of us did listen to the other tho. At least i did. Talked about the kids, ex's, houses, work...pretty much the gambit of ourselves. We did Red Lobster for lunch. I had salmon and shrimp and he had scallops. Take notes Jody...this stuff comes in handy. And Craftsmen tools and a backhoe! Digging holes...We had a nice leisurely ride home and were talking about hot spots and missing the actual nightlife and life in general that living in the city...a real city like NJ and NY. So we went to the Mohegan Sun to check that out. We had time. I have never been there in the 5 years that I have been back from Arizona. And I think they opened right around that time the time that I got back from AZ so it hasnt been around long. Wasn't impressed! All it is is a food court that surrounds a big rottisserie of slot machines. And they allow smoking Yuk! Now smokers can do what they want...I just don't wanna go home smelling like one.John had a cigarette while we were there. Its not easy to quit but he is trying. He said the smell triggered a craving. Only stress bring my crave or should I say my crutch. We were pretty much in and out of there after dumping some cash into a slot machine. I don't know how these people sit there all day. Check day. Senior citizens get their checks at the beginning of the months. No wonder they were pretty busy on a Monday afternoon.
So off to get Ariel...picked her up from Asia's with John and he left from the house. I sent Ariel into the house with the key and I got my kiss. I can work with this. Soft lips. Gentle. Not pushy. Recipricated. Nice. He asked if I was courting anyone else. Nope. No other worthy prospects. Just John. And I'm glad for him. I think there is definite potential. Plans for Tuesday set for 9am...no definitive agenda just a 9am appointment.
And so we are up to date...
So he showed up around 10:15-10:30am...not too bad just a little early. He came in briefly and checked out Ringo and the boys and off to Allentown we went. I haven't been to Allentown in a while but we got directions to the mall from the turnpike attendent. Pretty straight forward. We got there just before 11:45am. Couldn't check in until 12noon so we went a wandering til we could check in. So we went to the Williams Sonoma store. Right up my alley! I could stare at kitchen gadgets all day and feel up the rubber spatula and be in heaven. I would have sat there and read cookbooks all day and took notes. LOL!
Well, I check in and get seen promptly at my appointed time. Bonus points for Apple. The tech tried to sync my phone and looked up my case in the computer and that was it! He handed me a brand new iPhone. Not a refurbished one. A brand new one! I definitely love and swear by Apple now. So I had an empty phone but a new one. I had to wait til I got home to put all my stuff back on my phone from the backup on my computer. John has an iphone but needs help. He can't download stuff becasuse he doesn't have an Apple account set up and hasn't DL i8tunes to his computer. We are gonna have to change that so he can use his phone to what it was intended and not just texts and phone calls. There is a whole world in the iphone. I wouldn't change mine for anything other than a newer model or bigger hard drive.
So we had plenty of time to hang out so we went roaming around the mall in search of a new case for my phone to replace the pink one that truly did its service for the last year and can be retired with pride. I found a silver and purple butterfly one. It's very cute and I made the clerk get one that wasnt chipped from his comrade on the other level. So I got my case for my phone. We roamed around killing time checking out the stores and they had a Disney store. So, of course, I got Ariel a Little Mermaid sweatshirt that has her name on it. John found a cologne/perfume dealer and got a nice deal on a huge bottle of Drakkar. I like that smell. Curve for men too. Makes for weakness in the knees. Lol. We had a lot of time to talk and talk we did. Im so glad he is chatty like me. At least I wasnt the only one doing the talking, like I was talking to myself. It was refreshing. Both of us did listen to the other tho. At least i did. Talked about the kids, ex's, houses, work...pretty much the gambit of ourselves. We did Red Lobster for lunch. I had salmon and shrimp and he had scallops. Take notes Jody...this stuff comes in handy. And Craftsmen tools and a backhoe! Digging holes...We had a nice leisurely ride home and were talking about hot spots and missing the actual nightlife and life in general that living in the city...a real city like NJ and NY. So we went to the Mohegan Sun to check that out. We had time. I have never been there in the 5 years that I have been back from Arizona. And I think they opened right around that time the time that I got back from AZ so it hasnt been around long. Wasn't impressed! All it is is a food court that surrounds a big rottisserie of slot machines. And they allow smoking Yuk! Now smokers can do what they want...I just don't wanna go home smelling like one.John had a cigarette while we were there. Its not easy to quit but he is trying. He said the smell triggered a craving. Only stress bring my crave or should I say my crutch. We were pretty much in and out of there after dumping some cash into a slot machine. I don't know how these people sit there all day. Check day. Senior citizens get their checks at the beginning of the months. No wonder they were pretty busy on a Monday afternoon.
So off to get Ariel...picked her up from Asia's with John and he left from the house. I sent Ariel into the house with the key and I got my kiss. I can work with this. Soft lips. Gentle. Not pushy. Recipricated. Nice. He asked if I was courting anyone else. Nope. No other worthy prospects. Just John. And I'm glad for him. I think there is definite potential. Plans for Tuesday set for 9am...no definitive agenda just a 9am appointment.
And so we are up to date...
Off to a bad start....but definitly good beginnings
I have a lot of excuses but doesnt make it right. Ok the first excuses are valid. I didn't have internet service on Jan 2 & 3 but yesterday was inexcusable. So here we go because we have catching up to do.
Jan 2 & 3
Mario continues to depend on me for getting up. My shoulder really hurts. That's my bad shoulder. I have to talk to his other caregiver and see how he deals with it. Maybe he assists him during the week and he expects it. He definitely deteriorates as the day wears on but that doesnt make it ok. Sunday was a good day. I actually persuaded (with the assistance of his daughter Saturday) to use his cable. I cut out the list of the Comcast cable channels out of the Sunday paper and taped them to the back of the remote so now he knows wht the channels are. Anything but Judge Judy. jeopardy i don't mind but 3 hours of straight judge shows will grate on anyones' nerves. Sunday we watched Goodfellas. It's been forever since I saw that movie and it was a nice refresher. I couldn't believe he actually didn't change the channel ONCE. And he made it through the entire movie! He is usually down for the count shortly after 8pm after flipping some channels. But he was up til 9pm til the very end of the movies. Nice end to a long weekend.
Monday morning flew by. One hour of work and I'm done. I even got to leave early because Earl got a ride to work again. I caught the early bus and took a cab home from the square. I wanted to get home early so I had time to take a leisurely shower and scrub the smell of Mario off me. He doesn't smell or anything and he is always clean but I just want the smell of hsi house off me. I wanna smell like me and my body wash and wrap myself in my nice puffy towels and linger around in my robe for a little bit and not have to rish to get dressed. John said he was an early bird and is up at the crack of dawn. He also said that he would probably be early which means I needed more cushion time to be comfortable. But I am getting ahead of myself.
I spoke to John after I put Mario to bed. It was brief but we discussed our plans for money to take the ride to Allentown. He was determined to send his picture in an email. Well, I looked at the Gmail spot and I couldn't figure it out. Apparently, he did better than I did because he sent it! Gotta go into settings. I wouldn't have thought of that it is usually pretty evident how to attach files. He is cute. He is self degragating at times like he mentioned he needed Just for men hair dye and his bout with cancer is defintely an issue for him because he brings it up alot. Its ok with me. Shit happens! He is well now and I know its part of his recent past so maybe its because it is sooo recent. So now I know who I am meeting so we are off to a good start. Our conversation didnt last long because he is early to bed early to rise.
So I went to bed but of course as usual I couldn't sleep. Maybe anxiety did it to me. Always worried I am not gonna wake up on time and I don't wanna get held up on a Monday when I just wanna be out the door. I left my stuff at work I will do my laundry there. It's such a pain in the butt to transport the very same clothes I am gonna wear again anyway home just to wash I will just buy some detergent to keep there with my stuff. Less than 12 hours til our meeting.
Jan 2 & 3
Mario continues to depend on me for getting up. My shoulder really hurts. That's my bad shoulder. I have to talk to his other caregiver and see how he deals with it. Maybe he assists him during the week and he expects it. He definitely deteriorates as the day wears on but that doesnt make it ok. Sunday was a good day. I actually persuaded (with the assistance of his daughter Saturday) to use his cable. I cut out the list of the Comcast cable channels out of the Sunday paper and taped them to the back of the remote so now he knows wht the channels are. Anything but Judge Judy. jeopardy i don't mind but 3 hours of straight judge shows will grate on anyones' nerves. Sunday we watched Goodfellas. It's been forever since I saw that movie and it was a nice refresher. I couldn't believe he actually didn't change the channel ONCE. And he made it through the entire movie! He is usually down for the count shortly after 8pm after flipping some channels. But he was up til 9pm til the very end of the movies. Nice end to a long weekend.
Monday morning flew by. One hour of work and I'm done. I even got to leave early because Earl got a ride to work again. I caught the early bus and took a cab home from the square. I wanted to get home early so I had time to take a leisurely shower and scrub the smell of Mario off me. He doesn't smell or anything and he is always clean but I just want the smell of hsi house off me. I wanna smell like me and my body wash and wrap myself in my nice puffy towels and linger around in my robe for a little bit and not have to rish to get dressed. John said he was an early bird and is up at the crack of dawn. He also said that he would probably be early which means I needed more cushion time to be comfortable. But I am getting ahead of myself.
I spoke to John after I put Mario to bed. It was brief but we discussed our plans for money to take the ride to Allentown. He was determined to send his picture in an email. Well, I looked at the Gmail spot and I couldn't figure it out. Apparently, he did better than I did because he sent it! Gotta go into settings. I wouldn't have thought of that it is usually pretty evident how to attach files. He is cute. He is self degragating at times like he mentioned he needed Just for men hair dye and his bout with cancer is defintely an issue for him because he brings it up alot. Its ok with me. Shit happens! He is well now and I know its part of his recent past so maybe its because it is sooo recent. So now I know who I am meeting so we are off to a good start. Our conversation didnt last long because he is early to bed early to rise.
So I went to bed but of course as usual I couldn't sleep. Maybe anxiety did it to me. Always worried I am not gonna wake up on time and I don't wanna get held up on a Monday when I just wanna be out the door. I left my stuff at work I will do my laundry there. It's such a pain in the butt to transport the very same clothes I am gonna wear again anyway home just to wash I will just buy some detergent to keep there with my stuff. Less than 12 hours til our meeting.
Friday, January 1, 2010
A new beginning...
Project 365 officially starts today. I currently can’t get internet service at work but I shall blog anyway and post later. I had a quiet New Years Eve. I was in bed by 9:30pm. Apparently, there were fireworks going off that my client heard. I thought it was a dream. I guess it was real?! I was tired. I never sleep well the night before I have to work. I get so anxious that I am going to oversleep that I can’t sleep at all.
Moving on...my client is driving me crazy today. And I took my meds so i can't blame my irritability on my Bipolar. he has peed every 15 minutes and peed his pants 3 times today. Not to mention, he wants to pull my arm out its socket because he doesnt want to do the work to stand up. I have completely been lifting his big ass up out his chair. Well I can't do it anymore and I told him he is hurting my back and I have 2 more days here. There is no reason for me to be going home sore. he can do it. He is just lazy!We did physical therapy yesterday and I think I did more work than he did. Its ot my job to move him around. That is the point of physical therapy to increase his range of motion so he can get around better. Maybe I am just irritable after having so many days off. I dont know. All I know is I guess he is gonna be peeing his pants alot more if he cant get his ass out of his chair! I can't be lifting him. He is bigger, taller and heavier! I have had other clients that were skinny and very light in those cases yes I can lift them but he is too big. Ok enough about that...God give me patience...
On a lighter note...there is John. I am really looking forward to meeting him on Monday. it is truly a blind date and I hope he is cute. Just a full rack of teeth would be great. I'm really not that superficial but I think anyone would agree that there has to be some sort of physical attraction. I wish he would send a picture so I kinda know what to expect. Could always be like Lisa Kudrow in PS I love you and get the kiss out of the way. The first 3 criteria have been met. Single? Yes Employed? Yes Gay? No so now the next step is the kiss. It will be a bold gesture, I know. But everything else hasn't helped or forged forward so why not take a chance? He texted me yesterday before going to his friend's house that lives in the sticks and he knew he would not have any service. I thought that was nice that he actually pulled over to text me. He stayed over at his friends' house and today went out for munchies in between the Penn State game and the Ohio State football game. Again, I thought it was nice for him to text me when he had service. It's the little things that make me happy. I am secure enough in myself for boys' nights. I think boys' and girls' nights out are healthy. His, Hers, and our time. I let him off the hook and told him I didnt want to keep him and I didn't.Let's see if he texts me when he gets home after the game. I think I might email him directions on sending a pic via his iPhone. May be I just should leave it alone. I went this far blindly and another couple days won't hurt.
Let's see what are my New Year's resolutions? First, I have my project 365, my personal therapy. It's linked to my twitter page so maybe people will follow me?
Speaking of following me just to digress for a moment. I haven't heard from Todd since he asked me for money to pay his cell phone bill. I don't understand? He seeks me out over a period of 5 years and says all these things and then falls of the face of the earth again. I am sooo glad I didn't go to AZ for Christmas because Lord knows I might have been ass out at the airport and be on my own for 6-10 days. I hope everything is okay in AZ will Todd and he is doing well. I hope he will move past his ego since I know it had to difficult to ask for monetary help, and calls me or emails me. I care about him dearly but i cannot support him financially. If I gave him money, if I had it, what does that do for me? I know that might sound selfish but seriously? We are 2700 miles away from each other and I just don't think that much of a gap is easy to overcome. I have let me go.
Resolution #2...stick to my diet! I have lost 20 pounds so far and I wanna melt the fat. I don't care about the weight number, per say, but i want to lose my way into a smaller wardrobe. I took a week off and i think being back at work is really helping me get back on track. At home, its so easy to fall back into the "easy" bad habits. That's what it boils down to! Convienence and fat run hand in hand. I am motivated and as the new year begins it is easy to eat at work because that's all the food there is. I don't normally eat whatever he eats anyway so it's easy to stick to my diet. On average after the weekend when i go home and weigh my self there is a 1-2 pound difference! So let's see how much more weight I can lose in the new year. Let's see if I can put on a nice bathing suit in the summer. That would be really nice to not feel so self conscious near water. We will see...
Resolution #3...actually use my treadmill. It has sat in my house for four years and I have barely touched it. Well now there is no excuse! It is in my room, I took it downstairs and it shouldnt be my clothes hanger! Next I have to bring down my filing cabinet and sewing table and finally bring Ariel's bunk bed upstairs. I want to make my office but I don't know how that is going to work with the modem? I will need to find out about that. Also I need to hook up the cable upstairs in the playroom since that's where Ariel will be watching TV. I probably won't even do it only because i cant get her dresser upstairs! I would need to buy her new dressers to put her clothes in if she totally moves upstairs. It's an option! But I don't see my office happening anytime soon but I'm running outta room in my bedroom for anything with my king size bed in there. There are some technical issues that need to be sorted out before the room changing begins. But that doesnt take away from the fact that I need to use my treadmill. See how that came full circle. Eventually anyway.
Well, it's 7:18pm which means that my client should be going to bed in the next hour to hour and a half. that means I can take my grumpy ass to bed and start fresh tomorrow. I need to go see Linda and tell her about my off sleeping patterns. Its a constant struggle, me and sleep. And! I need to get to the GYN and get my Depo shot. I know Depo is weight bearing but with my diet going on it's worth the piece of mind. I would eventually like to be in a monogamous relationship and maybe even consider having another child but that is a looooong way off. So, for now, hello Depo. Maybe I should call tomorrow? I don't know if they would be open but if anything I will call on Monday for a Tuesday appointment.
Good night all! I hope everyone has a great New Year and stick to your guns as I will be...I can be your cheerleader!
Moving on...my client is driving me crazy today. And I took my meds so i can't blame my irritability on my Bipolar. he has peed every 15 minutes and peed his pants 3 times today. Not to mention, he wants to pull my arm out its socket because he doesnt want to do the work to stand up. I have completely been lifting his big ass up out his chair. Well I can't do it anymore and I told him he is hurting my back and I have 2 more days here. There is no reason for me to be going home sore. he can do it. He is just lazy!We did physical therapy yesterday and I think I did more work than he did. Its ot my job to move him around. That is the point of physical therapy to increase his range of motion so he can get around better. Maybe I am just irritable after having so many days off. I dont know. All I know is I guess he is gonna be peeing his pants alot more if he cant get his ass out of his chair! I can't be lifting him. He is bigger, taller and heavier! I have had other clients that were skinny and very light in those cases yes I can lift them but he is too big. Ok enough about that...God give me patience...
On a lighter note...there is John. I am really looking forward to meeting him on Monday. it is truly a blind date and I hope he is cute. Just a full rack of teeth would be great. I'm really not that superficial but I think anyone would agree that there has to be some sort of physical attraction. I wish he would send a picture so I kinda know what to expect. Could always be like Lisa Kudrow in PS I love you and get the kiss out of the way. The first 3 criteria have been met. Single? Yes Employed? Yes Gay? No so now the next step is the kiss. It will be a bold gesture, I know. But everything else hasn't helped or forged forward so why not take a chance? He texted me yesterday before going to his friend's house that lives in the sticks and he knew he would not have any service. I thought that was nice that he actually pulled over to text me. He stayed over at his friends' house and today went out for munchies in between the Penn State game and the Ohio State football game. Again, I thought it was nice for him to text me when he had service. It's the little things that make me happy. I am secure enough in myself for boys' nights. I think boys' and girls' nights out are healthy. His, Hers, and our time. I let him off the hook and told him I didnt want to keep him and I didn't.Let's see if he texts me when he gets home after the game. I think I might email him directions on sending a pic via his iPhone. May be I just should leave it alone. I went this far blindly and another couple days won't hurt.
Let's see what are my New Year's resolutions? First, I have my project 365, my personal therapy. It's linked to my twitter page so maybe people will follow me?
Speaking of following me just to digress for a moment. I haven't heard from Todd since he asked me for money to pay his cell phone bill. I don't understand? He seeks me out over a period of 5 years and says all these things and then falls of the face of the earth again. I am sooo glad I didn't go to AZ for Christmas because Lord knows I might have been ass out at the airport and be on my own for 6-10 days. I hope everything is okay in AZ will Todd and he is doing well. I hope he will move past his ego since I know it had to difficult to ask for monetary help, and calls me or emails me. I care about him dearly but i cannot support him financially. If I gave him money, if I had it, what does that do for me? I know that might sound selfish but seriously? We are 2700 miles away from each other and I just don't think that much of a gap is easy to overcome. I have let me go.
Resolution #2...stick to my diet! I have lost 20 pounds so far and I wanna melt the fat. I don't care about the weight number, per say, but i want to lose my way into a smaller wardrobe. I took a week off and i think being back at work is really helping me get back on track. At home, its so easy to fall back into the "easy" bad habits. That's what it boils down to! Convienence and fat run hand in hand. I am motivated and as the new year begins it is easy to eat at work because that's all the food there is. I don't normally eat whatever he eats anyway so it's easy to stick to my diet. On average after the weekend when i go home and weigh my self there is a 1-2 pound difference! So let's see how much more weight I can lose in the new year. Let's see if I can put on a nice bathing suit in the summer. That would be really nice to not feel so self conscious near water. We will see...
Resolution #3...actually use my treadmill. It has sat in my house for four years and I have barely touched it. Well now there is no excuse! It is in my room, I took it downstairs and it shouldnt be my clothes hanger! Next I have to bring down my filing cabinet and sewing table and finally bring Ariel's bunk bed upstairs. I want to make my office but I don't know how that is going to work with the modem? I will need to find out about that. Also I need to hook up the cable upstairs in the playroom since that's where Ariel will be watching TV. I probably won't even do it only because i cant get her dresser upstairs! I would need to buy her new dressers to put her clothes in if she totally moves upstairs. It's an option! But I don't see my office happening anytime soon but I'm running outta room in my bedroom for anything with my king size bed in there. There are some technical issues that need to be sorted out before the room changing begins. But that doesnt take away from the fact that I need to use my treadmill. See how that came full circle. Eventually anyway.
Well, it's 7:18pm which means that my client should be going to bed in the next hour to hour and a half. that means I can take my grumpy ass to bed and start fresh tomorrow. I need to go see Linda and tell her about my off sleeping patterns. Its a constant struggle, me and sleep. And! I need to get to the GYN and get my Depo shot. I know Depo is weight bearing but with my diet going on it's worth the piece of mind. I would eventually like to be in a monogamous relationship and maybe even consider having another child but that is a looooong way off. So, for now, hello Depo. Maybe I should call tomorrow? I don't know if they would be open but if anything I will call on Monday for a Tuesday appointment.
Good night all! I hope everyone has a great New Year and stick to your guns as I will be...I can be your cheerleader!
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