I know some of my posts are in a kinda screwy order but at least I did them. I just posted them weird which is why I put the dates on them just in case anyone is actually followin me and keeping up with the pace!
I woke up to the sound of John's voice. I actually got up too. I called right away for my taxi. Walt now has a standing order for my Friday morning taxi. I was on time for work. Every Friday I am sooo tired even though I went to bed on time and fell asleep fairly quickly.
Mario is having a rough day today. Physical thereapy is really pushing him because his last session is Wednesday next week and they wanna make the most out of the time he has left. So he was one tired guy. Didn't help that his sugar was wacky today because transportation showed up early and he was still eating his lunch and we were rushing so he didn't get his insulin shot til after we got home and I think the change in routine sent him into a tizzy. He was still feeling like shit when I put him to bed. He couldn't even make it to the bathroom so I had to clean him up before bed. I'm hoping he didn't pull a muscle in his stomach because I have done that and the results are not pretty at least for a week. And I'm here til tuesday so I don't wanna hear that!
John had a busy day at work. He says day shift is always busy and meetings, and bosses and all that is on day shift but I actually got to talk to him while Mario was at therapy for about 10 minutes which is nice. I have it bad and I know it. I can honestly say I haven't been smitten like this for anyone since Steven and that's over 12 years ago. I don't think I was even this giddy with my husband. With James we just kinda fell into a routine and with that routine was marriage. We never had a courtship or the anticipation of dating. With Ariel's father we ran in the same circles at work and I think it was more lust than anything else. And after I came off the road it was mistrust and lust. I can't wait to talk to John. I look forward to hearing his voice. I stare at the clock and wonder where exactly on his journey to my house he is at. I hate to see him go or that last kiss. I don't want to stop kissing him. I got it bad and readily admit it. For those of you that may be following me I'm sure you are tired of hearing about John and I'm sorry but that's the best thing my life has going at the moment.
He made me a voicemail at my request. Its so I can hear his voice whenever I want when I miss him. I can't believe he actually indulged me. I'm glad he did. My girlfriend Nona from college was not the smartest of apples on the tree, but had this little gem. She said "if he is not willing...then he is not worthy." and I have lived by that since then. I have had people scoff at the gem but you know what? they are not worthy if they would even question it. He drives from Catawissa all the time to see me. Misses me when we are apart. Calls me whenever we can. Listens when I speak. Has a genuine interest in my day or happenings even how trivial they may be. And he is willing to do all this. So, for me, he is worthy. I wish I had a car because I would drive out there just to kiss him goodnight and tuck him in. I would go there before he got off from work and make dinner and pack his lunch for the next day. I would do all those things. He has to work Monday night and forgot that me and Earl swapped out days and he was going to drive out before work just to see me for a little bit. But we have 2 days off together next week coming. We gotta wait til Thursday for those 2 days but it will be worth that wait. I think he is worth it. I don't want to date anymore. I want John.
Mario just called for me. He felt nauseus. Is that even the right spelling? Oh well. And I claim myself an English minor in college. For shame! That I can't even spell...LOL. I went down to help him out and took his sugar. He is having a rough day. I feel bad for him. I hope this all works itself out overnight or this is gonna be a looooong weekend. So I am back upstairs now and hopefully he will feel better. I have my "mommy ears" on to hear him if he needs me. So I am actually gonna go to bed now. I know a bit early fo my usual but I don't wanna be nodding off all day and John will wake me up in the morning. I am going to sleep to wait for his voice in the morning. Yeah...I got it bad!
Well good night all. Sweet dreams and great realities....
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