Christmas 2009- Tminus 6 days to Project 365

I have a few days yet officially until Project 365 begins but I am starting now. I think I might as well get in a rhythm and start making habit of blogging. This is my first blog after years of not journaling. I used to write in a journal all the time growing up until my words were used against me. It is expected for siblings to read your diary but your parent is another thing. I had no free expression or sense of release because my life and my ideas and my journal needed to be censored to avoid my mother's unrelenting anger and wrath.  As a young adult, my journals were found as well. I even went so far as to put warning labels on the first page of my journals. The warning label would read...These are my private thoughts, opinions  and feelings. If you don't want to know the truth or are frightened by it close the cover. I will not apologize nor retract these words....You think that would keep people's nosy bodies out of my journal. Nope! Instead, I got confronted about WHY I felt this way and people got offended if I said something about them. Well, if I wrote that Person X needed a shower because they were ripe today, that doesnt mean I don't like them but they smelled and possibly needed a shower. Whatever! I figure an online blog is liberating because it's releasing energy and thoughts into the wide open and can receive open feedback at the same time! Sometimes, I need to knock ideas off of people and have no one around. I have a small pool of friends. While they are great friends, it's hard to talk or criticize or discuss some issues with friends. I figure the internet is this great big open forum of opinions waiting to be tapped into. I recently discovered the world of Twitter and all it's wonders. I actually have met and interacted with a couple people and that's better than any bar to meet new friends.  My family has expanded from Twitter.  I have been criticized for using Twitter. Why would people need to post constantly? Well, I don't have open ears or even colleagues to share my day with on a daily basis. I also like to see what others are thinking! Do they have just as random thoughts as I do? LOL! Those random ADD thoughts that change universes from minute to minute? My nickname is Dory. Yes, Dory like the little blue fish from Saving Nemo.  I forget almost everything and have a serious time focusing if its not something of interest. So here is my blog! Uncensored, raw, random, and all about me and the world around me. Welcome to my little family!  -Dory